Finally holiday is gonna end...

2 months, it was slow at 1st, but when i realize its alrdy mid-may, i suddenly remember c = 3 x 10^8... 16/5 was teachers day, well i dont give a shit but its also my last day working, mixed feelings, i dont enjoy working but i dont feel like leaving, and when i realized my favourite isnt here it just make me lagi sad, that damn guy left 2 weeks ago without telling and i had to sub him, well he did widen my area but pulling me away frm her, u sinful bitch! well its nt like i am any diff, i din leave a word as well... its for the best, somemore i am just too busy... doing double paid terrible.. its my farking last day, and i am busier than ever, nice one, i cant even hav a good chat wif anyone, my fav no.1 din came, my 2nd fav lost her book 24/7 bad mood, and bastards kepung me wif all the god damn books, come on boss, its friday, lets finish the work tomoro, or sunday, niama monday morning oni do also can lo, i be4 past up 5 mins also can finish la, sai mm sai settle everythn today orr?? nvm, today is the day i be bad :D u ask me ques i str giv u ans, me good leh?? alrdy doin like this, i still cant finish everythn be4 7pm, lj teachers, dont u understand the more u give the more u need to mark?? and so my last day ended wif all piles of works, i dun even gt the slight time to harass me favs, this leave a dot for my 2 months, u ask me is it a nice job? i would say no, 1st, homeworks, i wan do i jiu do lo, i dunwan do i jiu copy lo, if no time copy then dun pass up la, as simple as this, but here ppl treat homework godly, i see a top student kena rotan (gao gao one) 5 strokes frm 3 teacher cos his homework gt a bit mistake, i told my mum and my mum was so guilty cos how she fckin kiss me wif the kuey tiaos last time and she ask me to sue her (=.=lll...) if u ply wif them, u gain trust but u lose respect, which is very bad cos they started telling me they fckin pee in their pants last night and i was like... and the older ones will be talking bout... 18sx stuff and i was like... (0.0...) their works are simple but fckin many la, its alrdy reaching much, niama wtf i nid to learn science, geo, moral, sejarah (fck), kemahiran hidup (fck x2), now even 2x3 and 3x2 is diff, kepong 1 and kepong 2 is also splitting liao, standard 3 is learning fractions and standard 1 learning carbohydrates.... today 1 of the homework was cheaking a past year UPSR exam, year 2005 cina, so fckin nostalgic until i cant remember which fckin question i chose, then i ask him can i dont cheak? he adorably answer yes, and  :"wif my standard, i get full marks teacher also wont believe la" wah got future (Y) when i giv answers to the kid, he ask :"teacher, x blh mcm ni la!!" i ask bck, then u mau atau x mau??? he rampas my book and run away, so honest :D anlah imma miss the days teasing them, i almost cubit every single students face and whack their heads wif a text book, wat an accomplishment... but sad why u no come la... kesian i miss u so much... wait til monday u ppl ask, eh whr that teacher go liao?? think sia also sad, duno gt student will cry for me or nt leh?? haha, wan do dao qiao qiao de zou, bu dai zou yi pian yun cai is very hard la, at least ngai zuo bu dao, "在困境中找到乐趣" has always been my motto of life, wan me be like robot go there do work then ciao, インポッシブル! but now wan leave liao oni come ah zhi ah zhor, this is so nt my style... to me is last day, those teachers got saturday, sunday, and a lot more days to go, whr got time diao me leh?? well i definitely din enjoy my last day, feeling down, gonna miss her face... why u no come zz i wana see her grow, mark all her books, listen to all her craps, but i wont be goin back, they say kids are heartless, brain so small, 70% of the things happen last time i also forget la.. i remember u, u might forget bout me alrdy, but if she remembers bout me and you, those days of memory were alive, and its worth even though we both forgot bout each other, old days pass, new days come, create and preserve shall keep my days calm.

bored, so....

       四个月假期，漫长，无聊，妈说我应该找intern，我说 a bit hard and a bit late la, 她竟然可以每一个小时烦我一次，每半天骂我一次，每一天敲我一次?! i was like, fck it, 你叫我做什么我就做什么啦!! 我从 1st march 每一天不停地找intern, 打电话打到要讲什么都可以背到了, 不过真的有点迟了，加上运气还真烂, 没有真的是没有, 要找两个月半的更难, 开着电脑QtabWpoof了几个钟, 在钢琴上同一set的chord弹上一个小时, 在院子里拿着篮球反身穿脚转身运足一个钟, 到最后对着键盘黑白键篮球发呆, 才看清我这一生，原来是如此的单调, 我以前究竟在做什么, 我以前究竟做了什么, 我, 还能再做什么.....

       虽然很单调, 但我对它们的热情永不熄灭, 每天我都一直重复, 但毕竟是一个人.... 有些pukimak act乖跟我说quit d2 quit bball, 记得当年我们连钱都不会farm, 一出街即被杀, 但还是非常不要脸地一起打, 现在一开机, steam chat 空空, 连FB也是空空, 一打机就吵架, 一输球就骂架, 都没有人要讲我，我就讲人咯! 然后就这样已经越来越少人，搞到最后没有人.

       那天我生日, 但我从来就没有开心过, 每年生日我都在避难, 但今年就好象有点太平静, 还有礼物收, 是我早已忘记了的感觉. 但一回到家, 我妈的完全不给面子地一烦一骂一敲, ngai is dulan dao @!#$%^&*(. 就这时我表妹说她朋友在超级补习中心教书，那里不够助教, 我即刻驾车去metro prima 面试, 一回家就叫我老母收声, 然后我的生日就愉快地过完了.

       eh wtf, then i have to work liao lo?! 还要是时间长工资低, 其实我的工作是做什么我都没有搞清楚 =.= 就这样blur sia blur sia 去了.... 内容很简单，7－12岁, bag open, homework out, finish give me, cheak liao 出去. 这样简单怪不得这样少钱...

       好像很无聊, 其实很爽一下, 我的称呼是用您, 第一次这样被叫毛都起完上来, 然后每一个可是站着给你敲，没礼貌就等下吃藤条. 整班被打到哭, 那么壮观的一面, 我以为过了那段日子就不会再看见了. 看着甲二功课簿上级任老师的名字, 各各熟口熟面, 脑海每天都浮着那些年的画面. 一打铃，什么鬼书先塞进那大大的书包，冲出课室, 看着他们脸上的笑容, 我以前放学有那么开心吗??

      看他们做不完功课，我有一种无明的感触; 听着他们的话题, 我感受到阵阵的怀念; 看到那个学生罚抄，我feel到无比的悲伤; 看到那个女同学帮那个男同学时，我幼稚地取笑他们, 然后想下想下, 想巴回我自己, 明天还是去道歉比较好... 没老师时那无法控制的声音，老师一进来全班diam掉的声音; 借笔芯, 借尺, 借胶擦, 借颜色笔, 借到不见去; 参考资料，日记，生字，笔顺，听写还有默写; 贩卖部，食堂，通告处，礼堂，还有每个拜一要交的那个死人周会记录簿. 我念旧吗? 不不不, 只是对每一个都有如此深刻的印象, 具体的回忆.

      "老师你几岁了?" 很年轻罢了. 我三年级的时候你刚出sh.....

       ok la, 老了.

(p/s: post the word that remind u most of ur S1~6 life in fb to me, for me is "罚抄")


   

A bit too bored, yea, just a bit....

Holiday should be a very beautiful thing, can relax, can chill,
can DONT TOUCH BOOKS (yes la, main point).

but when your holiday is too long.....

and all your friend's holiday diff frm u....












and u dont have a gf....






alrdy reach dao:
dota alone,
bball alone,
mamak alone,
watch porn alone, (this one always alone de la :D)
watch korean drama
的地步 liao...
this holiday, 我不要咯~!

so? i go work :D
weekdays everyday do same thing
wake, work, eat, sleep

how bout shit?
sometimes lo








so tiring, i want a holiday!!!

                                                    (**ngai fan jian, u chui meh??**)

today is saturday
bball?       done
d2?          done
mamak?   done
porn?       done
korean drama?? (suan liao la...)


so boring, i want to work!!!

                                                                     (**diam la**)

So, i typed this shit, =D
what a life, HAHAHAHA
did i waste you time reading this??

大海, 沙海

They say time is a factor, its not just for some specific shit, its for everything. We take time to improve ourself, sharpen our skills, bring ourself to another stage, bla bla bla. Well it sure take time, to realize that you were stupid, to realize you were yong shui, to realise you dont know anything, to realise that you are selfish, ego, prideful, sexist, facist, racist what ever cist you stupid motherfckers can think of, i had everything, proud to say that i am on my way clearing these caches and virus. So it might had took me 20 years, at least i realize them (quite late i guess, dont complain), well changing them is another story but at least i try to. But there are cases that 20 years and so going on cannot cure at all, how can he not know that he is bothering, harassing, disturbing what ever words u can think of kacau other people like nobody business and say: i ask only mah, i CAO, the whole head is full with what, money? earning? scamming? oh wise future genius of miracle in this century of society but no one is gonna like you, how can you not notice this, u scam others i can advice you, u scam me try to earn my money, do some homework bro, your friend here aint what eggtart retard, reject your OFFER is polite, to respect our friendship, you want more? tumbuk sama mata kau bagi mcm panda tak tidur 3d3n baru nak sedar, gone bro. And when time is the factor, when its 1 day u reach the shore, 1 month u jump into the surface, the more you try to dive in, its fckin dark, at first its smooth, u wont know when u will hit the surface, u wont know there is a shark inside, u jump inside because you trust this friend, well, baru tadi i stand on a surface. I had already reach the surface, walking for 2 years, hoping its not the end of the it, but 我他妈的, 2 words - 肤浅, the more i stay, i can only see nemo, 窄小, and its getting more and more obvious even an idiot like me can sense it, 明显. The sea thought she keep calm can cheat dao people dive in, 伪装, attracting people with everything it has to make itself look like tourism spot, 利用, but i am tired giving you chance, 失望, i decided to leave this piece of shit sea, 觉悟. Sometimes when the wind blows, 机会, she can actually create her own ombak by the wind, 借人过桥, without knowing that you need fckin gravity to make your fckin ombak, 为达目的, 不择手段. Whenever she feels tak syok, 季候风, halau aja poeple out, 自私自利. When i am swimming back up, i see tards diving in, 兵哥哥, and for some reasons they just enjoy floating, 以貌取人, I see idiots that saw the surface but dont wana accept that its so fckin shallow, 死不放弃(白痴), coming in like bangla invade, but all also take in, 欲擒欲纵. Dont so stupid la, its empty inside, 回头是岸, its all for show, once in as a soldier, die as a soldier, bury under the sea, 陷阱重重. Land breeze, 晚上, Soldier team P PC0708 guard the gate, sea breeze, 早晨 Team B PC1234 guard toilet, 换兵如衣. Today is the sea open day, well what a big day, might as well give it a try, poof i jump in, straight float out, its the same shit again and again, we were used as distraction, 凑时间, waiting for her ikan paus to swim in, 观音将军, in the meantime she is playing with her nemo ignoring us like she boss, 摆sien脸, diu we jio u reject la o0o you try your best create your own army, even the regulars (you know who) are deploying, you have my blessing, but i put a sign on the shore (danger hazard do not enter worst than 监狱风云), the only thing i regret is wasted so much time to discover this shit, enjoy your day with your paus kia!!

finish dreaming, life goes on~

random

human are such complex biology, might be more to psychology, but its still super no logic. alright, dont talk about others, let me try to understand myself first. i remember i never listen to songs, then i started with those epic rap songs by jc, after that i go crazy for jpop for a few years, and wtf go insane for kpop, and these flames go low low low... to fish leong~ ballad~ how can the genre change so dramatically?!?! last time, i aint into sports at all, then i started badminton, then go crazy for basketball, its like my youth 14-17 4 golden years, 12pm hot sun 42 degree, raining heavily sky as dark as 12am, 5am, 1pm, 4pm, 9pm, even til 12am, as long as there is a ball and a hoop, i will play. i remember i hate music so much, cos last time the piano teacher duno teach la (its definitely my fault), then i started by remembering a song by notes, then can randomly cover for any shit songs, and i even bought a guitar now, shit me for hating music so long. i remember last time i watch cartoon, dexter? power puff? ed edd eddy? then go coocoo for anime~ bleach naruto 1piece fairy tales apa pun watch. ah then lai liao hk drama, fuuuaa hot!! now, korea drama and taiwan drama also watching. last time we dont gather, then we started to go singk movie and stuff, now every week also mamak. well, these are all still logic, here comes the not so logic part. for me, i cant hate a person, u may burn my hse, slice me half, steal my gf, dafaq i just duno how to hate you. but hell, its so easy to fall for a person. u will fall no matter wat age you are, 12? 20? no diff, no matter how old she is, same age? younger? older? no diff, u will still fall for her, no matter wat ouside she hav, fat? short? ugly? not a factor at all, and you will still fall no matter wat inside she have, stupid? crazy? well, you dont fck because, you fell~ you dont tell me wat wat lj hormones wat wat cb brain i have, i dont care, blood vessels are not wires, u cant just V = iR, no sense. is it only me? cos i fell for someone so easily. i myself love surprises, but people around are just too dull. surprise doesnt need to be big, small unexpected are just fine. you see people bored sitting beside you, plug 1 of your earphone and suck it into his ear. you see the person spacing out, whack his ass. you are bored, and you know he is bored too, just press his doorbell first, think what to do after. may not be that surprising, but try that on me, i will be like, wtf?! yea somethn like that. when i fell for someone, i dont think of what surprises i ll get, i am thinking, what to give her, cos i dont have the balls to say i love you, that is for sure, this guy(me) suck right? so, i would do something stupid, well, its actually work cos the relationship got a lot closer, but mostly, gao xia gao xia, jiu friend liao lo, either you friendzone me (happens everywhere) or i friendzone you (dreaming). so if i conclude saying i love you will either make a girlfriend or lost a girl-friend, is the statement correct? if its that way, i aint getting a gf forever, cos some round shape object isnt there for me. if the girl confess(just if), very paiseh... dare nt accept... tips a little la~ oh no, u have to tip a lot cos i am stupid. so where was i... oh yea, i can fall for a person easily, fall for 6 years ada, fall for 6 days pun ada, well since i nvr confess at all, screw it. girls, be happy, cos i nvr confess to you~ of cos i ada pakai cermin setiap hari, i sendiri pun tau, muka takda, body takda, duit tak banyak, otak tak pandai, open mouth then zha people, talk crap no talk fact, 2moro exam 2day start drama 1st episode, lagi cakap i lagi sad, so i decided to jump into my bed, and slpt.

weekEND

well, there goes the golden 72 hours, dissapointed? actually, no, but sad. well u cant group sad and dissapointed together, cos it aint gonna happen anyway, so u are expecting something out of nothing, more or less i know its impossible, so i dont feel that dissaponted, BUT SAD? YEA? IT DIDNT HAPPEN. so when u r down, u dont feel like eating, u dun feel like playing, you dont feel like watching the last episode of the latest drama, you dont feel like touching the basketball you loved most, you dont even wana open garena plus, tetris u will mix up the shapes, diamond dash mix up all the colours, even watching porn u will mix up the genders. well, never had a girlfriend before, but u cant say i am dry, i just left the cage after 6 years trapped in a story, well i admit i was a bad writer, my story started bad, ended worse, since i was the writer, i apologise to the characters inside. eventhough its bad, but i was at least a writer, so at least u can say i am experienced, but dafaq, my wall was destroy in just a few hours. i always wanted to have first sight love, no matter what race(except some), age, as long as u r a girl, i can accept you. i dont need big boobs, for god sake remind me of the dictator(movie); i dont need a very pretty face, since there wont be a girl that will be prettier than fany; i dont need special, u dont need to be very good in studies, or music, or sports, or any other talents, because i have neither one as well. i looked in to the mirror everyday, of cos i know, i have nothing, empty inside, empty outside, so i will never be picky about my other half, the girl you wan to look always is different than the one u wana be wif always. when u see other people broke up, u will always be able to find words to consult them, the guy isnt worth you crying, the girl aint pretty at all, love isnt everything in your life, of fck cos i know all this, its just that, when it happen to yourself, all the resistors were simplify by Thevenin, and the voltage was jus 1V, made it easy for the currect to enter, juz 1 way, all the way in, and there goes, POOP! the bulb just cant take it~ well, she did nothing, it just happen like in 1U, someone walk pass you and gently touched you, current still go through since electrons were already charged, yes, the electrons dont need to do anything, they just need to meet each other, and that day, we met. {You dont know me, i dont know you, i was new, u reach out for me, u taught me everything u knew, u talked to me like a friend, u kept somethn frm me and i try my best not to ask, our gap were too wide, but i dont care, its just that the time was not enough, for me to share...} (p/s: its not lyrics, no copyright) its 3 days of heaven and 3 months of hell, days without you described as hell tidak melampau langsung, but i will never regret my decision not quitting this job that aint suitable for me, ur timetable, ur drawer, ur room, for now is mine, this period, i will see the world u see, i will do the things you do, we will share the same thought, so the next time i see you, i dont need another account, because i registered, and we synchronized