7/10

从tioman回来后，整个人lembik到现在才像个人样，跳码头，不够睡，淋雨，昨天还去打球，左手扭伤，还要硬硬一个手打。现在发烧，伤风，头痛，两个肩膀痛，总之就是他妈的死不去就幸运了。两天的路程，又累，又无聊。从这里去KTM TBS，坐个6小时的巴士、到柔佛等船，再坐2小时船才到。12am的巴士，睡觉时间早就报销了。到那里，下午就有Activity了，到晚上，一点都不想睡，大家讲废话到3，4Am，他妈的7Am就要去snorkelling, 下着雨去，冷到X酱，因为是朋友姑姑门下的配套，竟然带我们去6个地方潜水，不用穿救生衣也没问题，他妈的整天就给了大海。晚上又睡不着，竟得搭6Am的船，下雨，浪大，睡不着是一回事，晕船，还有人擦不懂啥X药，那个味道，加那个动摇，没吐出来真是太强大了... Well 这些都不是重点，这次Trip是我大学唯一一个最亲的朋友 chris 召我去的，有9个人，除了Chris我一个都不认识。但去到哪里，从那天搭巴士到回家，我们都没说上30句话，反而跟其他6个熟了起来。他从头到尾都跟女友在一起。不是你不可以拍拖，我也不介意你重色轻友，但尼玛的酱的女朋友，mana boleh pakai?! 24/7 抱着他，一开始你觉得他们好浪漫，看久了就是烦，Chris当然不以为然，每次想开口跟他谈天，女友就来抱抱，岔开话题。这种占有欲，好恐怖哦... 完全就想尽办法让男友隔绝，连 Chris妹妹看了都想吐，咱们哥儿都差点忍不住了。那天晚上，Chris 说配套贵了，得加RM30，食物自付，我们不了解为何食物得自付，于是就叫到房间大家一起讨论，那8婆突然敲门，走了进来，就这样抱着Chris，不是我们妒嫉，不过你他妈的还真不会选时间，金钱瓜葛，男人讲话，进来听是一回事，你来Kacau就不对，结果被我们轰走了，关门好大力... 讨论完后Chris还要飞出去哄她。Bitch Pls... 俗语说宁教人打仔，莫教人分妻，但是我身为你朋友，我会尽我所能，让你跟这缅甸八婆分手，以免你后悔一世。在大考当晚，书没读完，竟然得跟她通电到5am，过分. 他很喜欢炫耀他跟女友在床上Rock的事情，那晚追出去时，哄一哄变成了A片。我心想，有得干，你啥妹子都吃得下么？盲的都看得出你女友 abit problem lo, 如果不是因为我够友善，两天就这样自己一人过，死不死啊? Well still, 这里很美，不会后悔来。

16/9

closing exam, finally feel like studying, of course i have to study, its tmr == I am the type that needs music when i study, i open my laptop, play itunes from the 1st song. So here comes my adventure of studying, did 4 questions in a row and non of the answers are correct, either the stupid answer is wrong or i am destined to fail this shit, finally understand what is 崩溃... then this song came in. "Itsuka no tegami", sang by LiSA, funny, i never dl this song. Oh i borrowed my lap to my bro last time, this song gave me a chill throughout my vibe. I know LiSA sang "My soul Your beat" for , but somehow this song caught my attention. So i ditch the stupid thermodynamic and went youtube for a while, there goes my studies... There aint any MV or PV so i watched live,


I just wanted to cheak out how she sings, its 10 mins, so long, nvm i am gonna finish it anyway, and luckily i did, at 1st i thought the lalala for 4 mins was annoying, in the end, got love strucked by her frm 8.50 - 9.05. I never felt more grateful borrowing my laptop to others, the last scream fill a big gap in my heart i almost cried, no, i did cried. When was the last time i got so touched... F2 fish leong? omg back to studies!!!!!

14/9

Wake up in the morning, played coc, and almost failed the attack. I feel nth, Last time i would had got so angry of myself and almost cry, now I dont give a shit. In the same time i looked at others replay, sucks, but i dont really care as well. Why should i get so angry? At first i love this game, i try to teach everyone how to play better, and i encourage people to join me and have fun. Until I realize, now, we only want to win. We all have different reasons joining this clan, some just want good donations, some want to play clan war, some just came in for fun, but in the end, there is a guy that played for fun got chased out by me. I come to realize, some things that i think is fun, might nt be so fun after all in others perspective. I took on leader position because the aim for this clan was to make new people stronger, and then i will personally pick 10 of us only, in a new clan, playing the war together. All this while every war was just mock battles to gain experience, but i got so serious... I remember the days when i was in the main clan, i was so stress because everyone wants to win, and when i screwed the last battle, i couldnt face the, and i left the clan; and the same thing just happen, when i though i am just advising them on how to get better result, I scared them away. I always thought if you can play better, you can enjoy the game more, i guess that's quite wrong. Come to think of it, if i can get better result in exams, that doesnt mean that i will enjoy studies, i dont enjoy it, thats why i dont care. Yea, so I am wrong, i think i am suppose to apologize, nvm lets saved it for nxt time. But i think i should stop pressuring members, i will be the good guy this time. "nvm, do better nxt time", "its fine, you tried your best", yea i will be the good guy, i will have my co leaders play the bad guys, oh i feel so evil~ <3 p="">

Bm project

想到还要拿BM，我就STREES了。一上到班，我就准备发梦，然后青菜考完就行了。但事实并非如此，此BM非彼BM，第一课学的也并非啥BM，是HISTORY OF BM，尼玛的酱对我么？有四个coursework，总和60分，想说应该不难，看了一下，竟然得拍两个video，一个 poster 和一个resume。想说poster应该不会难，一开adobe就blur了；video应该还好吧？哇TMD老师要YouTube standard，想怎样？最后所有东西得弄成一个magazine。今天时due date，死死把第一个video拍完了，第二个生死未卜，poster随随便便，resume还像个人酱。OK，弄成magazine，哪里有的做？打了几十通电话，最好的那个也要明天才做得好。我在这个 project中，学会演戏，用photoshop，Edit video，打resume，做 magazine，才知道中学的课外活动有多重要。现在, 我好像一个傻海酱，一大早起身，Park在Pudu的一个停车场，前后一排printing shop，等他们开门，人生的Pek Cek 不过如此，还skip了3堂课，此时身负另一个科目的assignment DueDate，待会儿傍晚还有考试，还没读，从前天就开始熬夜，打了酱多字对面那间死人店还不要开门，此时俺再次觉得人生的PekCek莫过于此，只要坚持，就不会死!!!

aunty，天亮咯… 开门啦…

Another bored day....

半夜2AM没东西做是很无聊的 (几点没东西做都是这样无聊的啦...), no choice, 看anime lo, thats what I always do~ 竟然发觉没东西看了, 竟然闷到去看 slam dunk. 1990 - manga, 1993 - anime, 旧, 够旧, 好懒旧. 跟kuroko no basket拿来比, 简直就是天跟地. Wait, i meant to say, slam dunk better than kuroko!! 除了graphic 跟 idea 夸张, kuroko has nothing. 100% shot midorima? god of forward aomine? super center murasakibara? mehh lan lai de?! 完全是教坏人们, 连我自己都被影响. 板后射球, zone, wat cow sit, tmd, imagination go wild only. 主角已经西北强大, 对手还要是什么什么神, 期待啥? 更厉害, 更变态的招式? 看回slam dunk, 没有飞天遁地的招式，没有帅气漂亮的画风，没有穿脚后旋的花式，只有一团火. 记得以前早上3hr 打队，中午12pm 独自射球 傍晚3hr 再打队, 还得走路回到家，脚板皮全起泡，四肢无力，吃不下饭，半夜抽筋, 现在想回, 私はバカでう!!!! 一年扭伤差不多20次，医一次几百块，现在天气凉一些双脚的脚踝都在刺痛着, 为了什么? 奖牌? 奖杯? 奖金? sry wor,  一个都没拿过, haha 惭愧.

以前, 六年前, 没有技术，唯一的武器，上篮跟速度, 只身切入，不用割完整队，两个也好，一个也好，配上一个假动作，一个jab step，不够再来一个clutch, double clutch, 进一粒球，虽然只有两分，但这是何等威风，何等刺激，何等开心!!! 三年前，开始学会传球，screens，rebound，补篮，就没有再做这种单刀直入的玩法了, 因为很笨，很危险，很累啊!! 一拿到球就传，人家的眼神就会移走，我就不用跑进来跑去，也不用被人防到要生要死, 谁拿球就谁死，恨不得把球给你，你进球是我传得好，你不进球全部全部都是你的错, 完全被那个死人chau mind fck 了( 就是要赖他，吹么? ) 当年的火就这样活埋了，一直传，传，你强不强没关系，给你就对了，你进不进都不关我的事，传高球，传过脚底，背后传，关着眼睛传都做过，你拿到球我就 mission accomplish. 近几年来跟人打1 on 1，从来没有赢过了, 没人可以依赖，没人可以信赖，没人可以帮忙，就得靠自己了. 射，不进；上，不到, ok, 输了.  想下想下,  输就输咯, basketball is all about teamwork, 只要有射手或篮板手，我就为他screen，再把球传给他，就行了, 一组不用两个射手，反正一山也藏不了二虎，一个屁股也不用坐到两张椅子!!! 这时就遇到这种情况，假如整组最强是我，而这时我却依赖他们，当他们依赖回我时，我... 却连最普通的射球都进不了. 看见自己犯的是这种低级的错误，讲真以前都不吊，come on just a game bro, 你们不进你们错啦，我平时跟我的朋友打，他们帮我搞定，我只是负责帮忙罢了. 这一年在学校对面打，都是中学生，所以水准都不会很高，但却天天都在输，可能不是全因为我，但我就是贡献不了.... 整年打assists, 想自己来却没有实力, 失去了team mates 对我的信心, 也失去了junior对我的尊重.

**那家伙只会传，看他拿球不用那么认真；他不会进球的，让他射吧!!**

连一场游戏都搞不好，人生? 梦想? 你妈的靠边去，让我在球场上先找回我自己，我回来再跟你们算, 不是最原始的那个独吃鬼，我不要做什么上篮神，更不要做传球手, 我要做自己, 不要做到有你就赢没你就输，更不要做到有你没有你赢输没要紧, 我要做那个每个都想跟我一起玩的，一起赢，一起输，的那个，还没找到，我还有时间，让我看完这出常年老片，再继续自我找寻吧! 

同样的戏在不同的时间看，给我的感动也不一样啊!!

A beautifully screwed Sunday

Sunday is suppose to be a very beautiful day, there should be butterflies flying around the colourful flowers on the field. But instead I am in the fckin library, doing a fckin midterm paper, with no fckin aircond inside. Dah la xtau buat, panas lagi, tension sial. Looking at da damn paper, I look back to the past, the days of happiness in college, no I aint happy with Alvl papers, lets go abit futher...in secondary school, sial 10 subject xda pa yg I nk remember!! futher...primary school, gt da devil be my class teacher, sial 上加 sial...kindergarden, yes, beautiful, no exam, 吃饱睡，睡饱吃，不用烦钱又不用烦人, after I finish my flashbacks, I finish up the conclusion for the questions(its maths you know, what conclusion you wana make...), and walk out like a boss. Its abit early... hmm... like i care, 知らない~ My day alrdy spoil, to prevent futher destruction of this gorgeous sunday, this is the best solution, yea :D (this is the most nt convincing self consulting ever) and i walk out 1 and a half hour early(yes its abit too early, i realize that only after i walk out), looking at the hot sun, and imagining my score... it cant be too bad... i guess...

Pek Cek の学校人生

日子一天一天地过，第一个月都还没过，总共已经吃了7个quiz，pending 3 个assignment，所有test1的日期ham ba lang 出来了，就你他妈的现在想怎样？就算是小学科学不读也是会死好不好？！尼玛就酱一直连续不断机枪扫射，我妈的连上厕所射一射的时间都要想下，我只有这学期做完了每一份的tutorial，就算每个quiz都考满分，我还是不开心，那得满分的过程like 屎only，可能我不读玩多一点我的生活会好过些，那烟霾来袭，已搞得我无法喘息，还要给钱上学找屎，搞得暗疮四射，睡眠不足，没时间打球，没时间打机，还要没人召唱K，你讲闲不闲？回去招打球只有被Reject，召我出门打机喝茶我说拜托，我只有1礼拜1天半的时间在家，不是打球唱K我还真是吊你都不得空，最近总结了只有唱K才可以解压，打机打球不是我气死你，就是我被你气死。讲真来我家玩我是不介意的，你Pukimak要带Chau来再得空我都不吊你。不过其实再不得空，这种东西都是Depends，我的Gay马来老师教，tiada apa benda kat dunia ni sudah FIX, kalau awak tak cuba awak tak kan dapat, 就算被皇帝判了死刑，那把刀还没砍下去，那个颈还没吊上去，就不能放弃。老师啊，虽然你是Gay，但是我后悔没早点上你的课，但是因为你是 Gay，所以假如你讲要加分去你房间见你的话，我是打死也不会去的，谢谢老师。迷迷糊糊浮过了三个学期，才逐逐渐渐感受到大学的压力，是很迟，还是及时？