23/10

Since 2 weeks ago, i have been playin basketball everyday, so my routine is, mamak eat, bball, mamak drink, if its raining, means it will become mamak eat + drink. I cant believe how many packs of maggi and how many cups of teh i drank. Even though i noe that i will die early, come on la this is not the way man. My KG is reaching 60, or it has alrdy reach and is time to exceed 60, GG. If its raining, i will be either farming in d2 or farming in COC, i think it is more tiring than last sem's finals. Time to keep fit. I called ppl for basketball later, but its gonna rain again anyway, damn monsoon season. But i ate 2 pack of maggi goreng yesterday, last time i wont feel anything but after looking at some ppl, finally i got the urge to quit mamak. So i saw yi jie in fb asking me bball this weekend, i say lets see first since its gonna rain, he say if not he will go badminton. My 1st question is: got chau? I see positive answer, so means, NO! I dont hate badminton, i rather ply wif pik yin if there is chau, rite my beloved pik?? I nvr actually cared bout the skills, its the attitude. Yesterday played dota, plyed wif my friend and his cousin, while losing, he start to blame us, blame his cousin like all mighty, yea partially is my fault, but, is time to fight :D talk about foul language frm 8 types of nation, i wont lose to him in some stupid net fight. (so childish rite guys are) jiu shi bu shuang ni luan luan diao ren, u correct dou diao dao u wrong. I got so bored until i go read back conan manga, its ending anyway, boring, case after case ppl die and die and he solve and solve, last time was refreshing, got bored. Then waiting for the animes to release, this season i am chasing almost 10 series, but 1 week 1 episode is pure hell, i even start to watch sailormoon crystal (new one), last time sailor jupiter can strike tunder one meh??! this remake is no joke!! Every morning wake up wana eat breakfast bo kaki, lazy to out so stay at home alone, then noon hav to eat mamak again, GG this is too dramatic, better go eat smthn 1st.

8/10

很闷的一天，见书架上有本连城诀，拿来看一看。平时全字的书，我连两页都看不完就睡了。这本看了200页，不懂是我闷还是书好看。狄云，男主角，师承戚长发，绝招是躺尸剑法。那天与师妹师父参加师伯生日，得罪他儿子，在50页里面从乡下人变强奸犯，师父变杀人犯，师妹？原来是那个Pokai儿子喜欢师妹，才想尽办法搞定男主角。男主角被打到 i duno how to describe, 两条链，四头钉，一端打在双肩，另一端到脚踝，我妈的酱不如去死?! 妈的看到我全身都痛，nt even the slightest helpful, 不过我还是看下去。在牢里遇上丁典，差不多一样Case。丁典看见戚长发和另外两个同门弑师，救了老师傅，死前传他连城诀心法，神照经。然后狄云自己原来在练着连成剑法的“唐诗剑法”，怪不得自己师父要弑师，唐诗变躺尸，这么久以来学了个屁武功，哈哈。不过让我感兴趣的是丁典的爱情故事💓。他喜欢上县官的女儿，但kononnya他样子像大便，但她样子像神仙，就是都爱花，讲花可以讲到白天黑夜，讲到❤️都出来。不出奇，我朋友那是每次做工跟他Supervisor看upin and ipin看到出火花，看花看到❤️一点都不出奇, gua... 他们无所不谈，没想到他笨到跟女的讲他有神照经口诀，facepalm. 那天见家长，县官下药，GG。他就这样坐了7年的牢，每天县官都派人进去Kacau他，到狄云来了，丁典以为狄云是县官派来的，又被hentam了一番... kesian... 做男主角做到这样，Win liao lo... But每天背窗的沟渠，女的，每一天，7年，都给他换花，还对丁典笑一下，但只有一眼，即刻转头，看见条仔坐牢，可以笑得出meh... 女友为了不嫁人，自行毁容 TT 他为了让女友开心，不杀县官。连续1个礼拜，没换花，丁典beh tahan, 爆墙壁，i was like, dafaq? why dont you do it earlier? 飞到县官家，看见棺材，哭了起来。尼玛被折磨7年，女友死了，县官Sohai在棺材上放毒，丁典去kiss棺材，end of the love story. 神照经，一掌可以干掉任何人的内功心法，竟然为了一个女子，甘心坐牢，女子为了等他，甘心毁容。不用看爱情小说，看金庸就够了咯。夏雪宜温仪，郭靖黄蓉，张无忌赵敏，fuaa 韩剧日剧给我靠边去哈哈, no offence LOL

7/10

从tioman回来后，整个人lembik到现在才像个人样，跳码头，不够睡，淋雨，昨天还去打球，左手扭伤，还要硬硬一个手打。现在发烧，伤风，头痛，两个肩膀痛，总之就是他妈的死不去就幸运了。两天的路程，又累，又无聊。从这里去KTM TBS，坐个6小时的巴士、到柔佛等船，再坐2小时船才到。12am的巴士，睡觉时间早就报销了。到那里，下午就有Activity了，到晚上，一点都不想睡，大家讲废话到3，4Am，他妈的7Am就要去snorkelling, 下着雨去，冷到X酱，因为是朋友姑姑门下的配套，竟然带我们去6个地方潜水，不用穿救生衣也没问题，他妈的整天就给了大海。晚上又睡不着，竟得搭6Am的船，下雨，浪大，睡不着是一回事，晕船，还有人擦不懂啥X药，那个味道，加那个动摇，没吐出来真是太强大了... Well 这些都不是重点，这次Trip是我大学唯一一个最亲的朋友 chris 召我去的，有9个人，除了Chris我一个都不认识。但去到哪里，从那天搭巴士到回家，我们都没说上30句话，反而跟其他6个熟了起来。他从头到尾都跟女友在一起。不是你不可以拍拖，我也不介意你重色轻友，但尼玛的酱的女朋友，mana boleh pakai?! 24/7 抱着他，一开始你觉得他们好浪漫，看久了就是烦，Chris当然不以为然，每次想开口跟他谈天，女友就来抱抱，岔开话题。这种占有欲，好恐怖哦... 完全就想尽办法让男友隔绝，连 Chris妹妹看了都想吐，咱们哥儿都差点忍不住了。那天晚上，Chris 说配套贵了，得加RM30，食物自付，我们不了解为何食物得自付，于是就叫到房间大家一起讨论，那8婆突然敲门，走了进来，就这样抱着Chris，不是我们妒嫉，不过你他妈的还真不会选时间，金钱瓜葛，男人讲话，进来听是一回事，你来Kacau就不对，结果被我们轰走了，关门好大力... 讨论完后Chris还要飞出去哄她。Bitch Pls... 俗语说宁教人打仔，莫教人分妻，但是我身为你朋友，我会尽我所能，让你跟这缅甸八婆分手，以免你后悔一世。在大考当晚，书没读完，竟然得跟她通电到5am，过分. 他很喜欢炫耀他跟女友在床上Rock的事情，那晚追出去时，哄一哄变成了A片。我心想，有得干，你啥妹子都吃得下么？盲的都看得出你女友 abit problem lo, 如果不是因为我够友善，两天就这样自己一人过，死不死啊? Well still, 这里很美，不会后悔来。

16/9

closing exam, finally feel like studying, of course i have to study, its tmr == I am the type that needs music when i study, i open my laptop, play itunes from the 1st song. So here comes my adventure of studying, did 4 questions in a row and non of the answers are correct, either the stupid answer is wrong or i am destined to fail this shit, finally understand what is 崩溃... then this song came in. "Itsuka no tegami", sang by LiSA, funny, i never dl this song. Oh i borrowed my lap to my bro last time, this song gave me a chill throughout my vibe. I know LiSA sang "My soul Your beat" for , but somehow this song caught my attention. So i ditch the stupid thermodynamic and went youtube for a while, there goes my studies... There aint any MV or PV so i watched live,


I just wanted to cheak out how she sings, its 10 mins, so long, nvm i am gonna finish it anyway, and luckily i did, at 1st i thought the lalala for 4 mins was annoying, in the end, got love strucked by her frm 8.50 - 9.05. I never felt more grateful borrowing my laptop to others, the last scream fill a big gap in my heart i almost cried, no, i did cried. When was the last time i got so touched... F2 fish leong? omg back to studies!!!!!

14/9

Wake up in the morning, played coc, and almost failed the attack. I feel nth, Last time i would had got so angry of myself and almost cry, now I dont give a shit. In the same time i looked at others replay, sucks, but i dont really care as well. Why should i get so angry? At first i love this game, i try to teach everyone how to play better, and i encourage people to join me and have fun. Until I realize, now, we only want to win. We all have different reasons joining this clan, some just want good donations, some want to play clan war, some just came in for fun, but in the end, there is a guy that played for fun got chased out by me. I come to realize, some things that i think is fun, might nt be so fun after all in others perspective. I took on leader position because the aim for this clan was to make new people stronger, and then i will personally pick 10 of us only, in a new clan, playing the war together. All this while every war was just mock battles to gain experience, but i got so serious... I remember the days when i was in the main clan, i was so stress because everyone wants to win, and when i screwed the last battle, i couldnt face the, and i left the clan; and the same thing just happen, when i though i am just advising them on how to get better result, I scared them away. I always thought if you can play better, you can enjoy the game more, i guess that's quite wrong. Come to think of it, if i can get better result in exams, that doesnt mean that i will enjoy studies, i dont enjoy it, thats why i dont care. Yea, so I am wrong, i think i am suppose to apologize, nvm lets saved it for nxt time. But i think i should stop pressuring members, i will be the good guy this time. "nvm, do better nxt time", "its fine, you tried your best", yea i will be the good guy, i will have my co leaders play the bad guys, oh i feel so evil~ <3 p="">

Bm project

想到还要拿BM，我就STREES了。一上到班，我就准备发梦，然后青菜考完就行了。但事实并非如此，此BM非彼BM，第一课学的也并非啥BM，是HISTORY OF BM，尼玛的酱对我么？有四个coursework，总和60分，想说应该不难，看了一下，竟然得拍两个video，一个 poster 和一个resume。想说poster应该不会难，一开adobe就blur了；video应该还好吧？哇TMD老师要YouTube standard，想怎样？最后所有东西得弄成一个magazine。今天时due date，死死把第一个video拍完了，第二个生死未卜，poster随随便便，resume还像个人酱。OK，弄成magazine，哪里有的做？打了几十通电话，最好的那个也要明天才做得好。我在这个 project中，学会演戏，用photoshop，Edit video，打resume，做 magazine，才知道中学的课外活动有多重要。现在, 我好像一个傻海酱，一大早起身，Park在Pudu的一个停车场，前后一排printing shop，等他们开门，人生的Pek Cek 不过如此，还skip了3堂课，此时身负另一个科目的assignment DueDate，待会儿傍晚还有考试，还没读，从前天就开始熬夜，打了酱多字对面那间死人店还不要开门，此时俺再次觉得人生的PekCek莫过于此，只要坚持，就不会死!!!

aunty，天亮咯… 开门啦…

Another bored day....

半夜2AM没东西做是很无聊的 (几点没东西做都是这样无聊的啦...), no choice, 看anime lo, thats what I always do~ 竟然发觉没东西看了, 竟然闷到去看 slam dunk. 1990 - manga, 1993 - anime, 旧, 够旧, 好懒旧. 跟kuroko no basket拿来比, 简直就是天跟地. Wait, i meant to say, slam dunk better than kuroko!! 除了graphic 跟 idea 夸张, kuroko has nothing. 100% shot midorima? god of forward aomine? super center murasakibara? mehh lan lai de?! 完全是教坏人们, 连我自己都被影响. 板后射球, zone, wat cow sit, tmd, imagination go wild only. 主角已经西北强大, 对手还要是什么什么神, 期待啥? 更厉害, 更变态的招式? 看回slam dunk, 没有飞天遁地的招式，没有帅气漂亮的画风，没有穿脚后旋的花式，只有一团火. 记得以前早上3hr 打队，中午12pm 独自射球 傍晚3hr 再打队, 还得走路回到家，脚板皮全起泡，四肢无力，吃不下饭，半夜抽筋, 现在想回, 私はバカでう!!!! 一年扭伤差不多20次，医一次几百块，现在天气凉一些双脚的脚踝都在刺痛着, 为了什么? 奖牌? 奖杯? 奖金? sry wor,  一个都没拿过, haha 惭愧.

以前, 六年前, 没有技术，唯一的武器，上篮跟速度, 只身切入，不用割完整队，两个也好，一个也好，配上一个假动作，一个jab step，不够再来一个clutch, double clutch, 进一粒球，虽然只有两分，但这是何等威风，何等刺激，何等开心!!! 三年前，开始学会传球，screens，rebound，补篮，就没有再做这种单刀直入的玩法了, 因为很笨，很危险，很累啊!! 一拿到球就传，人家的眼神就会移走，我就不用跑进来跑去，也不用被人防到要生要死, 谁拿球就谁死，恨不得把球给你，你进球是我传得好，你不进球全部全部都是你的错, 完全被那个死人chau mind fck 了( 就是要赖他，吹么? ) 当年的火就这样活埋了，一直传，传，你强不强没关系，给你就对了，你进不进都不关我的事，传高球，传过脚底，背后传，关着眼睛传都做过，你拿到球我就 mission accomplish. 近几年来跟人打1 on 1，从来没有赢过了, 没人可以依赖，没人可以信赖，没人可以帮忙，就得靠自己了. 射，不进；上，不到, ok, 输了.  想下想下,  输就输咯, basketball is all about teamwork, 只要有射手或篮板手，我就为他screen，再把球传给他，就行了, 一组不用两个射手，反正一山也藏不了二虎，一个屁股也不用坐到两张椅子!!! 这时就遇到这种情况，假如整组最强是我，而这时我却依赖他们，当他们依赖回我时，我... 却连最普通的射球都进不了. 看见自己犯的是这种低级的错误，讲真以前都不吊，come on just a game bro, 你们不进你们错啦，我平时跟我的朋友打，他们帮我搞定，我只是负责帮忙罢了. 这一年在学校对面打，都是中学生，所以水准都不会很高，但却天天都在输，可能不是全因为我，但我就是贡献不了.... 整年打assists, 想自己来却没有实力, 失去了team mates 对我的信心, 也失去了junior对我的尊重.

**那家伙只会传，看他拿球不用那么认真；他不会进球的，让他射吧!!**

连一场游戏都搞不好，人生? 梦想? 你妈的靠边去，让我在球场上先找回我自己，我回来再跟你们算, 不是最原始的那个独吃鬼，我不要做什么上篮神，更不要做传球手, 我要做自己, 不要做到有你就赢没你就输，更不要做到有你没有你赢输没要紧, 我要做那个每个都想跟我一起玩的，一起赢，一起输，的那个，还没找到，我还有时间，让我看完这出常年老片，再继续自我找寻吧! 

同样的戏在不同的时间看，给我的感动也不一样啊!!