22/1

今早我起来尿尿，看见隔壁房，等开着。是TM 5am，不是开玩笑。他突然走出来，我赞他勤劳，他说他有考试。我回房，坐着，看回自己，是我太轻松了吗？我自己也有4，5个assgn deadline，又不是考很好，我有什么资格轻松！但是我还真没有点点想温书的心.... 又没动力，又没兴趣，你问我为什么选这科，我告诉你我每天都在后悔.... 我看见自己室友，因上学期GG了两科，Ptptn这Sem不付，爸妈从Epf都要硬硬挤钱给他，他也打死不放弃EE，因为他爱电子，我其实是非常敬佩的... 但他每天都得花几个钟应付两个女生，不用怀疑，是两条船；每天都不温书，煲剧比我凶；上课一半出去讲电话，不回来那一种... 如此典范在我身边，我怎么会想读呢... 我讲真很7想Unfriend他，但他除了不读书之外，就没不好的地方了... dilemma... 眼看身边的华人朋友，上课再闷都目不转睛... 我却在打Blog... 我室友？他在房间睡觉... 我唯一一个优点就是够淡定，够随便，但现在看回，这个淡定以后会不会害死我... 读书啊！！！剩两个礼拜罢了！！！等下，看完anime先吧....

2/1

Happy new year... well its a little late, who cares. 31/12 is the day whr normally ppl go dpc countdown, i remember every yr i will go chau place, walk to dpc, watch the mercun, then slp at his house. Actually, watching mercun, is boring, very boring, for me, i dont enjoy it, somemore with all the people there, annoying (宅男特色, gg dont want admit also canot liao) I remember i will always get sick after staying at chau house, 1 thing is his room is small, but he ask 8 guys to slp together, u know i would rather slp on the stairs than go pek wif them.

Then the night no one will wana slp, no matter how many times aunty come screw us, his sister go complain to papa, kita tak bagi 1 tahi langsung :D then someone discover this game, a combination of push ups + poker, we dont raise money, 伤感情 (not much left though), we raise the number of pumps we do. after a few Hundreds, finally someone is tired, so we can try to slp.



BUT those bastard will talk, talk, man talks, boy talks, girls talk (聊心事), how is ur siang rui, every fckin year. I have the habit of slpin early, u know like 10pm, 11pm, and they can talk til 4am, 0.0... and the next day, we got sick.


I remember last year, was the last year i do it, but i didnt go for the mercun, i sit in the k-room, keep singing til everyone come bck, then eat, the go back sing again. Even the girl (his relative) diam diam one, ignite sia also start singing liao, cos of how thick face + dont wan face style of singing. It was all good til they come back. Well chau just dont like to sing k, i think. So he would close it and ask us to ply stupid things with him, cards, chess, bb-gun shoot through paper (ok thats new, now i know how bored u are), whole night wasted, i would rather lose my voice, so diff our characteristic, interests and everything, its amazing how could we be friends for 15 years, and 13 of them r in the same school.

This year, i came back home, and my sis was goin to his house (our sis are friends too), she ask me to fetch,
i tell her: "my dear sis, ur bro is not at home, understand??"
sis: "huh?"
me: "我不在家，UNDERSTAND?"
sis: (Y)
when she come back, she tell me,
sis: "ppl ask me why u no come, i say u still at uni gt things to do, 厉害 leh??"
(有生之年第一次觉得自己亲妹妹好霖可爱)






1 yr can chg so many things, there r more, alot more things that had change, the person that i used to love, the things that i love to do, the song that i love to listen, even the underwear that i love to wear also canot fit liao (肥了，我会检讨，不用多心). I got to know myself more, exploit myself more, see how bad is myself, how good... nah nothing good, its getting clear when u r getting old, things that stay the same, they look the same, they are still the same, but how u see it, how u feel it, 昔日已非，差异决然.

 Though there is 1 thing that remains the same....

11/12

This is the worst week ever. Because i played too much sports on the previous weekend, my whole body ache and i cant even walk properly that monday, the day end before 10pm. The next day this week hand fail to hold my treasure properly and i lost her, tuesday spoiled. My only confident subject, wednesday night test is suppose to be my mood comeback, but after that exam, i just feel worse. Today thursday is public holiday for selangor but i cant go home cos tmr night got exam. I am practically writing blog everyday because i have nothing better to do.






(huh, why dont study for tmr test?)



my beloved just died, and u ask me go study?









The only good thing that happened today is her album is out <3 amen="" dao="" dou="" everything="" forget="" goddess="" happened="" i="" let="" liao="" long="" me="" nbsp="" neck="" p="" please="" that="" this="" wait="" week="">

10/12

The moment of truth, is always cruel. Today is her 死亡24小时纪念日. I remember how much I abuse her, how much I hug her, I bring her to practically everywhere and I will never leave her alone, and that's the cause of her death. Your departure taught me a lot of things, awaken me up from the past and bring me to the future. A lot of times, the sweet moments shared between 2 people can only become memories, 有你一路的陪伴，心中除了感激，也没任何跟好的慰问. When you are gone, there is no more love between us, there is only sorrow and regrets. Be ensured that I wont stop at the time you left me, but that moment will not lose its value in my heart for I wont forget about it for the rest of my life, I will still learn how to love others, but I wont love another person as how I love you before, that love is for you and only you. How much help, entertainment and hard work you contributed to me, I will always, always, remember you.                                        



致我最爱的 I5

8/12

我落泪，情绪零碎
电话游水一去就不回
马桶里的水
臭到有想吐的感觉
拾起那瞬间
眼泪淋湿我的脸






https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6d0v2InyN_w
(chorus 2nd part 3.22~3.52, imagine I singing)

4/12

Thursday's time table is the worst, 1 hour class, 2 hr break, then 2 hr class 1 hr break, tiring and boring. Eventhough the anime release is nice today, plus today is SUPPOSE to be the last day i stay here for the week.
















Yea, the word is suppose, because there is a dumb exam in noon tmr zz. I hated programming, i cant understand anyshit, and microprocessor is just the mother of this shit. So now i have my 2 hour gap, i alrdy watch the new release during my previous 1 hr gap, well even u pay me to study i wont so give up on me.

I open kissanime.com impulsively, and the recommended anime was this, AnoHana, the flower we saw that day. I might not look like it but i am into romance series, or maybe slice of life, this type of so-call boring anime. Its only 11 episode, i have the time of my life anyway (its just a thursday) so i gave it a shot. And you know what, i was shot, KO. It is quite a famous anime, i had friends recommend me, and the ED soundtrack secret base was a hit song too few yrs back, because of all the new release i forgot about it, a 2-3 yrs old anime. The anime was beautiful, sad, lovely, 凄美 la. But its not exactly a love story, 3 guy 3 girl was together since young, and that summer, Memma died. And after a few yrs, Jintan can see her, but only he himself. While trying to grant her wish to let her rip, she help the other 5 to repair back their friendship.

Cos anaru like jintan, tsurumi like yukiatsu, but both guys like memma, and memma died, bye bye friendship. How they get back together, confess to each other, is too real.

Memma is kinda like jesus, she loves everyone, so there is quite a lot conflict between the others, every episode is cool, and the last 2 ep, shoo saaad ngai ulmost cried.










In the end, she rest in peace, successfully convey her feelings to everyone, and everyone manage to see her last moment.












Secret Base - Anohana Ed

12/3

1 of the day I hated most, Wednesday, stucked in the middle between the weekends, have 1 of the least anime release, disgusting time table, late classes long gap, and you know what? 1 quiz and 1 midterm, Wednesday, I m sry I cant bring myself to love you anymore. Yesterday night, hot, I slp, I sweat: this morning, cold like #$%^<, cant continue my sleep, stone til 10am for class, there goes my beautiful morning. 10-11am, now here comes my unbelievable gap, 3 hrs <3 1="" 2="" 2pm="" 40="" 45mins="" 4="" 5pm="" 6pm="" 7="" :d="" a="" anger="" another="" are="" around="" back="" balance="" better="" blank="" blog="" business="" but="" button="" can="" cant="" class="" comes="" computer="" control="" do="" don="" during="" electrical="" enough="" eq="" for="" front="" go="" gone="" gor="" hard="" harmony="" have="" here="" hour="" how="" hrs="" i="" if="" in="" iq="" is="" its="" know="" knowledge="" lab="" last="" leaving="" life="" like="" lost="" many="" midterm="" might="" most="" my="" nah="" nbsp="" negative="" never="" no="" non="" not="" now="" o0o.="" of="" ok="" only="" open="" order="" out="" p="" paper="" people="" play="" pls="" power="" question="" quiz="" rape="" release="" revision="" say="" screw="" shit.="" shit="" should="" skip="" so="" song="" state="" study="" studying="" sub="" system="" t="" tell="" that="" the="" things="" think="" this="" time="" to="" tt="" type="" u="" until="" walk="" was="" wasted="" what="" when="" y="" yao="" you="" your="" youtube="">