16/9

closing exam, finally feel like studying, of course i have to study, its tmr == I am the type that needs music when i study, i open my laptop, play itunes from the 1st song. So here comes my adventure of studying, did 4 questions in a row and non of the answers are correct, either the stupid answer is wrong or i am destined to fail this shit, finally understand what is 崩溃... then this song came in. "Itsuka no tegami", sang by LiSA, funny, i never dl this song. Oh i borrowed my lap to my bro last time, this song gave me a chill throughout my vibe. I know LiSA sang "My soul Your beat" for , but somehow this song caught my attention. So i ditch the stupid thermodynamic and went youtube for a while, there goes my studies... There aint any MV or PV so i watched live,


I just wanted to cheak out how she sings, its 10 mins, so long, nvm i am gonna finish it anyway, and luckily i did, at 1st i thought the lalala for 4 mins was annoying, in the end, got love strucked by her frm 8.50 - 9.05. I never felt more grateful borrowing my laptop to others, the last scream fill a big gap in my heart i almost cried, no, i did cried. When was the last time i got so touched... F2 fish leong? omg back to studies!!!!!

14/9

Wake up in the morning, played coc, and almost failed the attack. I feel nth, Last time i would had got so angry of myself and almost cry, now I dont give a shit. In the same time i looked at others replay, sucks, but i dont really care as well. Why should i get so angry? At first i love this game, i try to teach everyone how to play better, and i encourage people to join me and have fun. Until I realize, now, we only want to win. We all have different reasons joining this clan, some just want good donations, some want to play clan war, some just came in for fun, but in the end, there is a guy that played for fun got chased out by me. I come to realize, some things that i think is fun, might nt be so fun after all in others perspective. I took on leader position because the aim for this clan was to make new people stronger, and then i will personally pick 10 of us only, in a new clan, playing the war together. All this while every war was just mock battles to gain experience, but i got so serious... I remember the days when i was in the main clan, i was so stress because everyone wants to win, and when i screwed the last battle, i couldnt face the, and i left the clan; and the same thing just happen, when i though i am just advising them on how to get better result, I scared them away. I always thought if you can play better, you can enjoy the game more, i guess that's quite wrong. Come to think of it, if i can get better result in exams, that doesnt mean that i will enjoy studies, i dont enjoy it, thats why i dont care. Yea, so I am wrong, i think i am suppose to apologize, nvm lets saved it for nxt time. But i think i should stop pressuring members, i will be the good guy this time. "nvm, do better nxt time", "its fine, you tried your best", yea i will be the good guy, i will have my co leaders play the bad guys, oh i feel so evil~ <3 p="">