23/11

holiday is suppose to be the most thrilling thing on earth, no nid study, no nid work, u do what ever u wan, slp how long u wan, and wake anytime u like. Just the 3rd day, i alrdy feel bored. Every night dota, sleep, then wake up for lunch, dota, ball, dinner, routine redo, holiday life concluded. My life got no breakfast, no study, no nth. I feel so wasted, i played 6-8 games of dota every day which means alrdy 8 hrs of my life, + ball 2 hrs, time left is reli eat or slp. If i knew it earlier i would had taken watever course wif a friend, at least we will hav the same holiday, same topic, same gossip. Join watever gang, ball gang ke, sing k gang ke, classmates ke, besides the main activity, there is nth left between us. We play bball together, laugh on the court, but after the game we cant talk bout anythn besides ball, is this the norm? ask other friends, they all say they know how i feel. They say after 5-7 yrs friendship last forever, bullshit. The more time we spend together, the more ugly parts of each other we discover, 8 yrs is smthn like the limit of friendship, we will definitely fight over smthn, talk bad bout each others, develop diff interests, so on. And for me, there r only 2 cases, either the fight last forever and we diao chou, or that person nvr chg attitude drives me away, and the ending is the same. I personally like to fight, argue, criticize people, especially my friends, they deserve to know a 2nd honest opinion about themself, and for me, i like to be scold, nt because im a sadist, i wan to know, i wan to reflect, i wan to chg. No ppl is liked by everyone, i duno how many ppl hate me, i dun wana know, but tell me why, i talk too loud? im too annoying? i did smthn tat offended u? u no tell i duno, i din even gt the chance to explain and i got labeled by u, fuck u. my face offended u also shud leme noe mah i can at least avoid u. So many stupid dating apps for hamsap ppl, i wonder when will an apps to search true friend exist... (mamak at 3pm, search for people around, invite, and drink together ❤️❤️)

14/11

i love rain, to me its a very beautiful thing. I wont run if its raining heavily, cant escape anyway, i would gladly walk under the rain. I see ppl running like an idiot, ppl holding an umbrella and actually walk pass me, cars passing thru me wif monkeys inside looking at me, and many more funny funny shits. Rain wont kill anyway, no matter how heavy it is it makes u wet, at most. Sun? fuyoh u can die under it man. So we were balling, at night, thinking the rain just finished. Well the floor is wet, so we cant run, no one plyin serious, lots of chatting on the court, so much gay and bromance, and then rain come, everyone running, chicken fly dog walk, oni me walking away slowly. 

Kissing under the rain is romantic; sports under the rain is youth!! I truly think ppl tat had share this youth wif me will be best friends for life. But now seems like really left me, no point forcing wat u like on others, no diff frm direct sales; but i reli wana share out my passion to others, nt like someone keeping 2.6b in his own acc; but too much passion would juz scare my friends away... which, i don reli hav many left. Look back at chau, getting boycourt, cos of me (i think so), make me feel so guilty (i must be stupid thinking this), its happening to my bro, and my bro wana quit uni cos of this stupid reason. My parents were arguing bout this problem, my dad was furious, but my mum was sad, mum say bro don deserve this, dad say bro is stupid. Mum say she shud call and talk to him, dad say u shud juz leave him alone. So much love frm parents, well im nt jealous at all (definitely am), but nvm i dun care. 

I hav so many gangs, people say, Oh wow u hav so many friends, u can talk to anyone, i was like, hi and bye also consider talk? 你对朋友的定义太肤浅了吧? ppl call this 社交，i call this 滥交. I talked wif many kind of people, made my mind very versatile, flexible. I am willing to listen to anythn, well believe it or nt its up to me thou. But this make me classify ppl more, i become more 挑剔 choosing friend, i wan friend tat think like me, but everyone is unique, so mayb 50%? still too much? i hate people that talk bout logic and theory, realistic ppl shud juz die. I hate ppl that has a fixed mind, if u alrdy had ur own thoughts, its fine, but dont try to take out ur concept and argue while ppl talking for every little thing, annoying, ppl use fork eat noodles also wana kacau? I hate people that cant chat, people that come out wif a gang ended up playing phone whole day should juz fckin stay at home. I also hate people that are not considerate, no samples for this but juz try to see things frm my point of view. I hate ppl that doesnt improve, fatty getting fatter, blur getting more blur, 反省下啦. I hate people that doesnt comment, things that u like, u dont like, but all u say ok, how ppl know? things that ppl do wrong but u say its fine, how ppl know? arguing when ppl reli did smthn wrong is hlpin that person, and telling ur preference hlps improving our relationship. I really hated this, i gav up my first love for this reason, i gav up a few friendship for this reason. Well for friends there are vice versa situation, i try to argue wif people for the things they did wrong, i myself might be wrong thats why we argue, im nt teaching u, lets hav a discussion. 1 guy fck me bck upside down, 1 guy ignore me totally and 1 guy juz nod his head, chg another topic and make the same mistake again. I dont argue wif teachers, or strangers, or classmates. I argue wif best friends, cos we r bestfriends, but it doesnt seem that u guys think the same, im nt as weak as my bro, and if my friends boycourt me like chau, u stop right there, is nt u guys fire me, is i fire u guys. I would be lonely but i can still survive, BLEK, i don nid cabbages in my fruit basket, i dont even like vege, let my basket empty, its fckin fine. A friend told me he dont like my stupid stupid examples like cabbages, ok cool i ll stop talking like that, i listen, i reflect, i accept, i correct, no more stupid 比喻 frm today.

30/11

Kidding me juz now mama call me, say cousin told him, since u study dao so nt happy, somemore keep fail, QUIT LA, then he come tell my mum, he 醒觉 liao, OMFG 1yr foundation + 2yr degree and he fckin tell mama he 醒觉, 醒你妹, the money spent on him, really is throw money into water, it reminds me of friend, someone told me someone study in utar Mech Eng degree, took 2yrs+ to settle his 1yr foundation and 2yrs in degree nt even completed yr 1 and get kicked out from school. I duno about my friend is an idiot or nt, i duno bout my bro also, but if its my son, i would had fckin slap him, 你他妈不要读就死远一点, dun say wan take degree and fail, at least take degree and play (me) still acceptable la. And the friend say still wan continue, EE Eng somemore, kidding me, 自己斤两要称一称嘛, but the main point is the parents, still willing to throw money on him. This is ridiculous, everyone has the right to go uni yes, but nt idiots, my mama could had spend more money to go other country travel instead of feeding an idiot, they don earn money to do charity for utar zz I duno, this should be none of my business, but i just feel like punching my bro, i just dont fckin know why, my mum was so happy when he gav up on studies, i was like, 🙄🙄🙄, my sister is gonna take him as an example for sure, im expecting F6 sem 1 all fail for her result, everyday go out study wif a samsung note 5 among the notes, duno wat if my mum gets a heartattack, i might hang this 2 idiots on the fan upside down and let it spin for 2 weeks, and i tot i wasnt a good son, 败家仔 zzz

30/11

week 7 nid to pass up fyp progress report 1, but oni met advisor 2 weeks ago, last week oni finalize topic, apa babi progress dia nk dalam 1 minggu aku babi pun belum cari jgn kata nk sembelih o0o, Last thursday i ask for meeting wif supervisor to ask wat to include in my report, reach his room empty, wait liao 15 min i go walk around the building passby a meeting room, he TM having meeting wif other student, diao i wait outside for freeking 30 mins, delay tell la i lunch dou no eat jiu fly to ur room liao u ply hide and seek meh zz while waiting outsideI listen to the discussion, is about capstone design project which im taking too, ppl ask him wat shud include in the proposal, he say: u muz do ur own research, find more info, then oni we can know wat details to include. WOI, ask u 东 u talk 西, i saw the students face, so much pek cek + confuse, i was like diu lo my supervisor ini mcm, habis la aku. 

So my turn for meeting, he tell me this, baru 2 minggu mana ada progress, nxt week baru hantar la, let the coordinator or the counter ppl know, I was like FUCK YEA, this weekend can play liao. So i enjoyed my weekend, then sunday night i send email to the fyp coordinator, telling i ll pass up late and my advisor allow, tmr morning wake up, 

Cool, so i whatsapp my supervisor wat to include in the report, i was expecting him to say that he will talk to the coodinator to delay for me, he 竟然 ask me to do, i was like, 💩💩💩. Ok fine, lets do this the professional way: 

class finish = 1pm  

deadline = 4pm 

progress report = 30 marks 

actual progress made in 2 weeks = 0 

So according to the equations, i hav no time, even i did type smthn, i hav nth to type, even i wan try to bullshit, i hav less than 3hr to research bullshit, OK CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

Well, i produced 9 pages, imba leh?? minimum 15pg, ppl do dao 20+ pg, excluding appendix somemore, i dun even hav anythn to add in appendix, my 30 mrks burn le... Nvm think on the bright side, still hav 70 marks, Im fine wif B+ ❤️❤️. 

I myself has so many problems, well i choose nt to stress, i choose to giv up the probs that i cant solve, so wat i lose 30 marks, i get B or lower, after i grad it doesnt matter anythn, Spm so little A, Pmr so little A, Upsr straight A, it doesnt matter at all, at least i dun care. My bro came home on thurs, fight wif my mama for 4 days to drive a car up to kampar. I was like, he wan jiu giv lo, papa like, can consider de, mama say NO!! Then when i was enjoying weekend, my hse actually hav war. I heard how my bro negotiate wif mama.

1.0 rain everyday on bike very leceh

1.1 last year also rain everyday why u din ask

1.2 I CANOT TAHAN LIAO LO (reason accepted)

2.0 then ur friend also gt car wad, why u no sit their car?

2.1 吊臭 liao (reason accepted) 

3.0 then like that....

mama haven finish sentence, my bro say: 你够了，问问问，要给还是不要给讲一声，不要每次这样浪费时间给人假希望。我很少跟你要东西，现在我来问就是我很想要，你讲这样多就算了啦！

I was like wtf the nego was going well, and he throw the nego just like that?! 

Mama was shocked, dun say mama i

also shocked, but wat mama say nxt lagi shocked: u diam! 你现在不要听我讲，你也不用讲, DIAM. 

i dun think i nid to go utar learn marketing i also know, you wan nego for car, trying to get it with the minimum constriction and condition is the best outcome for a nego, but for him, ur car is my car, i wan drive my car bck uni on monday, u wan giv jiu giv dun talk so much. If im my mama, i would be like, ok nego ends here, u sit train bck. But mama these days 转性, despite my bro say like tat, he go nego wif papa, and duno why somehow the higher lvl nego includes me. After the nego, i was shocked, the result show how much my papa mama love my bro, papa say monday drive him bck utar, sun bian go pinang pray. AND nxt tues drive car up kampar GIV him and papa sit train bck home. i was like, jealous? nt really la, but it took me 3 months to nego to drive to Kl during my A-lvl, more or less jealous gt gua. mama

prob is he cant drive properly, he drive worse than my sister, so highway drive is nt allowed but send car to utar drive around there ok, wah sometimes i juz duno wat my parents thinking, 小路才是撞车最频密的地方. I din say anythn thou, i say if he wan the new car he can take, i dun mind. 

The outcome is good rite? I think tat is the best, if i at utar gt car liao, i drive to pinang eat char kuey tiao everyday mama also duno rite? juz chill for a week la, i also noe my bro skip class one its impossible to get rain, so he wan car de reason very obvious alrdy, mama alrdy giv permission even thou the nego went bad, i is envy dao 无声出. U know wat my bro say? I want it on monday, if nt i stay at home til nxt saturday oni drive bck up, WOW, tis lovely idiot grow grass in his head, must be full of moses and grasshopper, if u think im crazy im actually the most sane person in the hse. 

Mama sunday night go wedding dinner, eat half way bo mood ask me fetch her home. She thinks bro has some issue in utar, friend boycott, fetch girlfriend, watever la. I dun understand, he fail 3 semester, 3 times ptptn lost papa pay, last sem long sem 4 month 3 subj fail also, and papa mama still giv him 1 more chance, how come he still can act like a boss? I would be so ashamed i would dig a hole and hide, i mean, even passing a degree is nth to be proud of let alone failing.

Im actually amazed at his thick skin, he actually threathen my mum if he go bck kampar he wont come bck again. To me la, if u dun wan come bck is fine, if im papa, i would cut all his card service, phone service, school fee and accomodation fee, lets see how cocky u can be whn u nid to pay for ur own life, nt included food yet, u would use up all ur money no choice but to bck to kepong, no money buy ticket nid to walk, no food no energy walk nid to crawl, and beg for forgiveness outside the locked gate, thats what u deserve when u hav no brain, mama giv birth de time is perfect, ur brain development is also perfect, but now u dun hav brain confirm is ur own fault, if tis week go bck i see my bro still there, i might actually punch him under the name of love, leme beat some sense out of him i nid to release my own stress as well. Haiz, problems everywhr, 2 mid term and 1 assgn deadline coming also... shit just happen whenever they wan, pakat la come 1 by 1... dun sekali gus, lucky is me other ppl canot handle confirm go jump building alrdy, ppl Upsr 6A1B also jump building HAHAHA 

26/11

today im in another coc clan playing clan war, and i screwed an atk. no one blame me, but since morning til now i hav been thinking of the same bloody mistake i made, why bring more wallbreaker instead of a jump, and the wallbreaker went left instead of going in, 1 mother fckin choice made a sure 3 star become 1, the troops didnt went in to get the hall. At this moment i recall some bloody fcker that ask me to go back to my pinoy clan, its just a game. I am losing a war, but we r all happy, everyone is still trying their best even thou opp achieved 43/45 stars, no one throwing, everyone atk. So its just a game, watever; last time when i ply bball, it was slippery, i took off my slippers in order to hav more friction, we lost the game and my leg has blister everywhr, why try so hard, its just a game. Those days, i couldnt answer these question, do i not know that plying basketball bare foot would hurt my leg? do i not know complaining bout clan management wouldnt gain any solution? Then why do i still do it? i din argue, mayb cos i did agree wif the fact that its just a game. i din really search for the answer, but i always kept the ques, and i saw this clan, they gav me an answer. Passion and desire to win. Even its just a normal game, anythn, tetris, tic-tac-toe, watsoever game u can name, does wanting to win need a reason? i wana win, no matter its clan war or normal atks, chess or ladders, dota normal or ranked game, it doesnt matter which one is more important, i wana win them all. U call this greedy? No i juz wana win, weather can or nt, doesnt matter, is always wan or nt. Thats why i come appeal to u my opinion bout clan ppl nt active, thats why i still take off my slipper (cos i forgot to bring sport shoe), thats why i still bball even after 30+ times twisting the same damn bloody ankle, i would feel sad whole day if i lose to a bunch of kids on the court no matter wat reason, i hav passion, i hav desire, and i hav my mother fckin pride, the just-a-game doesnt matter a shit to me. I bring 25 valkyrie and i couldnt even get 1 star on that base in coc, u think the dark elixer hurts me? No is my pride, and no matter ppl tell me how useless valkyries are i ll still use them, for the same damn reason, i hav my pride. The first time i use meepo in dota 2, i could control all 5 units, not even 2 units, how much my friends told me how suck im, i dont stop til i get it, its not stubborn, its really not. For u motherfckes that doesnt hav neither pride, passion nor desire, u don nid to quit, i quit, i quit the clan, i fired u, not the other way around. 

then u may ask why i don study? of cos i don, xda passion, xda pride, lagi xda desire, getting C doesnt matter :D i wont regret getting a pass cert, not at all :D :D

17/11

tis sem have 2 projects, 1 is fyp and 1 is capstone design. wat is fyp, go google. wat is capstone design, is the basic of a project design. for example, tis yr title is a damn hotel, and our group is EE & EEE, so wat we do is we r task to do the %electrical power circuit, communication network system, entertainment, aircond, back up power, security system and a damn renewable energy% --- designs. For the past 3 yrs, in my uni life, no subj that gor gor cant settle 3 days before final exam, most of them just take me 1 sleepness night to settle, and settle doesnt mean A, just a damn pass will do, even passing means getting 50/100 in the final paper, 1 day study could settle it. BUT THIS SHIT? NO, no text book, no guide, no suggested reference, no details, NO SHIT. Im assgn to do communication and entertainment system, just the damn "estimated cost" section almost kill my brains. entertainment, assume in room, so is television, tapi wat brand? how big? why choose this? omg can u juz watch the damn tv and shut up? so is this entertainment enof in room? how bout a dvd player? stereo system maybe? how much would it cost? how many do u nid? what brand would u pick? TM kidding me, and that is juz entertainment. how bout communication? phone system? internet? how many routers u need to hav wifi in 5 floors 200 rooms? wat security u using? wat type of IP u using? how would the topology be? 

mother of god teacher oni teach me how to count the voltage, the current, the power, how the buddha i noe how mnay router u nid? wat type of service i nid? shud i go for unify? niama i almost forgot bout astro. mummy... first time in my life, im forced to study, sit down and search for articles, journals, what the landmine did i stepped on? i nid to study few hrs for a freeking 72 page reports? karma, i must had burned books last time now im force to read back all those i burned.. i really hate tis, especially communication, wat the hell is ipv4 ipv6? wat is VoIP? teacher also nvr teach in class, but i need read all about this and submit a damn proposal bout shits that i dun even understand after reading few hundred pages of words, in the end i just type in google show me advantages of IPv4 whatever it is copy and paste, gor gor giv up dah 😢😢😢 and when i just pass up this shit, i juz realize i need to come up wif 2 more diff designs as backup... so wat i subscribed astro and i hav to chg my plan? niama u believe i subscribe no channel and u hav to rent dvd frm the lobby wif AV double price?? eh actually i think it works... creativity is the source... of becoming engineer (suddenly feeling confident, proposal 2 consider done :D)

2/11

不知不觉已经是四年生了，回想起过去几年究竟在干什么，竟然年年都不一样。一年生的我有着一个1TB的hard disc, dl 了非常多的英文片和anime，于是就是躲在房间里和室友慢慢煲，拜一煲到拜四，然后就滚回家，打球打机喝茶。二年生的我，非常意外不小心不故意地踩爆my dear hard disc, 悲伤了25分钟，然后积极地寻找网站看anime，既然没得带去看，就直接stream着看，BUT THEN，宿舍的网速，竟然是3栋楼的人share着用，1栋有10层，1层有8间，1间有4人，assume一个人一架电脑，我TM在跟959个人抢线，看戏？Load个FB都要5分钟，才出到第一个News Feed。在我快绝望的时候，我discover到你的存在，My 电脑室，虽然不能下载大的file，但是看youtube 1080P 是完全 smooth de，因此我的人生又亮了希望。3年的我，已经看了很7多的anime，我不敢讲我看了全部，不过假如看完那个叫神仙，哥绝对是神人。所以三年的我走向了这个不归路，韩剧。一向都很迷Kpop，大一到大二每个 (girl group)comeback, debut都通杀，以前是因为听不惯韩文的发音所以没有看韩剧，现在因该没问题了。一开始看就是两部神作 Secret Garden & City Hunter，是很好看，不过音还是不惯... 哥竟然走向第二条不归路，variety show... Running man, Infinity challenge, We Got Married, Weekly Idol, nan mangesou... OK，练到了，time to watch drama... 今年的drama出到最凶，凶的不是Quantity，是Quality。Blood, producer, orange marmalade, angry mum, scholar who walks the night, pinocchio, the girl who see scent, yong pal, oh my ghost, and many many freeking more. 讲的都是有看的，还没看的加在一起就恐怖了，比A5牛肉🐂还要垂延。问我哪一个好看的话，其实除了scholar walks the night & orange marmalade 的返回时空篇，其他的都很强大。本来今年最好看的，应该是kill me heal me，但中途杀出一个Healer，哥的心完全被那神一般的剧情俘虏了，简直就是一个Perfect Version 的 City Hunter，有更强大的剧情，更悲惨的过去，更多的action，外加战略，记者(职业)，Hacking，romance，其实假如kill me heal me 找个靓女我可能会比较挣扎，不过Sry这神作今年注定排第二 TT healer除了剧情，男女主角，连OST都强大过人，搞到有Kim Tae Hee 的 Yong Pal 都跌了名次，有Shin Se Kyung的Girl Who see scent 连榜都上不到，有Heal的作品真是太强大了。此时反问自己，你TM看戏还是看chick... 我只能说... ada chick punya 戏 always win :D

2/11

me much envy ppl that enjoy uni life, they hav a gang, eat together go class together, go to any society and dominant the majority, after class gt activities, host and join events, i dont even hav a group for my class assgn, when i see 1 gang come in and talk in the class so happily before lecturer enters, me mmg oni can sit down and listen, nt to say i nt friendly, but if people 1 gang talking jiu suan u noe also u wont actually suddenly like: hei i know bout that too, my god ppl ll think u r a weirdo for god sake. my best friend finally drop out frm uni, duo become solo now, the other classmates r in another section, tis class jiu suan banyak ah moi dou no use, 光看吃不得, the others also gang gang like that, last time my duo can pick up the solos, now solo liao who come pick me up TT lets think on the bright side. stupid 4-man assgn i can solo anyway, even if i don do also still hav 80 marks, more than enof for me to pass. later let 哥厚着脸皮找陌生人, group u tuk assgn dah full x? blh add i? haiz uni life, life of a solo uni student is like 💩💩, i kinda envy ppl that take exam based, habis class ciao home when end of the course pay money exam, don nid quiz assgn MT do tis do that 看那/支白/老师脸色, imagining nxt time solo work life i alrdy feel like crying TT Fml...

29/10

First sem final year, i registered 1 elective, ctrl system 2. Ctrl sys 1 isnt that hard, laplace, transfer function, a fck lot of integrals and graphs and so on. But ctrl sys 2 first chapter almost screw my brain up, finding unknowns from electromechanical system, without notes, wif his high speed slide swipe and raps, and his inhuman white board handwritting plus me sitting behind, 哥真的是，看不见，听不到，抄不及. The most distracting thing is, there are 14 chinese in the class, half of them r girls, and 1 lenglui among them. I duno u r frm mechanical electrical or electronic, just stay there and let me see 😚😚😚 suddenly taking electives isnt that sad of a case, given i pass the finals haha, how to survive 3 elective nxt sem...

18/10

i love basketball. the first time i try bball, no one teach me, so i learn everythn by myself, how much i hated those friends that r good but they only know how to improve themself, thats why i nvr keep my knowledge, u wana noe, u ask, i tell. 

then i see everyone take the ball and shoot, folo lo, but no matter how much time i spent on it alone, i just cant get it in. the basketball court is full of people, so everyday after school i would spend all my time in the court, 1pm-3pm is hot? no problem i can take it (now u gt skin allergic, dai sei) even if i hav tuition on 2pm, i would play even its only 20 mins, on weekends i came on 7am and shoot all by myself, quiet and dark? no problem. But it doesnt reli hlp, the ball wont go in, cos no one bother to teach me, board reflection 弹板，body position, knee bending, 1 hand release 1 hand supp, ppl see u shoot, laugh at u frm behind but they nvr tell u why, stupid ppl. 

then finally, my best frien chau (at that moment), wait i nid to clarify, i tot best frien = how long u guys know each other, well... nvm. he taught me how to lay up, theoretically the nearer u r under the hoop the easier to score, lay up is a series of action where u dribble the ball in and lay the ball up, sounds simple? it took me 3 days cos my dear friend only explain the theory, his demo was bad, 读书厉害？没有用啦，都做不到 😎😎😎 

I was so happy, i used it in every match, so after i get the ball no matter how many ppl blocking in frnt of me, i would dash in like wind and lay it up frm any angle. I was very proud wif my speed and laying technique, my layup skills surpass senior school team players, but i read the steps, i never read the precaution. A stable layup needs good rythm, combo with the 1-2 step, where utilize the limit of foul steps allowed (3 step is a foul) and use final step properly. I jump with my left leg on the 2nd step, lap the ball up, and land wif my right leg. 

it was a surprise when i found out many ppl cant do it, they would lose rhythm and walk extra steps, or they wouldnt walk at all, but previously u were dashing so u need to hold the ball for 2 steps to gain a stable posture, and here comes the main part, by jumping wif ur left leg, it would hurt the muscle of ur calf cos of the momentum u build dashing in, plus i run fast no brakes, and the landing, would be the momentum + gravity force, doesnt really hurt ur muscle, but it damage ur ankle, knee and waist. At least 40 times i twist my right leg ankle, is only natural this shit happens, if i know the theory early hand, i would rather miss the ball by going slower than damaging my beautiful sexy legs.

Took me more than 5 yrs to realize tis fact, but legs are unreplacable, too late to regret, too ignorant to prevent. But i wasnt stupid, i realize i would hurt my ankle if i layup, so i dont layup at all (best solution), but i cant shoot nicely, my layups accuracy r 70%, but my shots? less than 25%, once every 4 shots, im nt gonna do such insulting act, 丢脸到要死，so i choose to perfect my dribble and pass. Pass is safest shit ever, by giving him the ball, i gav him all the pressure and responsibility, so i dun reli nid to do anythn <3 someone can score, i just nid to make sure they gt the ball. but it took me more than half a yr to learn it, the art of passing isnt as easy as u think, high pass, straight pass, floor bounce pass, adjusting strength for each passes and pass in the correct timing and judgement, it was more hectic than layup, u would nid to be dribbling without looking at the floor/ball cos u nid to look at the whole court to find the correct guy to pass, annoying, but its within my ability, multitasking is 1 of the rare talent i freeking own, proudly 👊🏻👊🏻👊🏻

I would have backside muscle pain after playing, i thought it was normal, til now, in this fckin second, after 8 yrs of playing basketball, i realize why i have all the muscle pain, is cos of passing zz in order to surprise the defender, passing with 1 hand is 1 of the most efficient way, u dont nid to grab the ball before hand, saves a lot of time, and by using 1 hand, u r actually using ur whole body strength, a little bit of rotation and momentum theory, centripetal force? fck the laws la, but its a little hard to ctrl the direction, well im human, mistakes r bound to happen (sry i juz dun wana admit i sucks) So, by focusing all ur force in 1 hand, u think ur triceps, elbow, wrist, shoulder, and links to my backsides can take all the pressure? OF COS NO, but it took me 3 yrs to realize why am i having intense back pain, why am i so stupid?? and its only on my right side, stupid fck, such a big hint and i ignore it, now i know why ppl pass wif both hands, utilize both shoulder and arm without kacau ur backside, why why why i never care, alrdy no ppl teaching, if sendiri dun take care, who wana jaga me?? winning games? 哥宁愿输，让哥睡个好觉吧 TT, sry backside, ur brain is slow TT 😭😭😭

8/10

tis blog is practically the 1 place for me to shout out my anger, keeping fire inside is always dangerous. i hav allergic, duno to wat, but whn it happens my whole body will feel the pain, i scratch here, the other side will feel it, its periodic so unless i take med it wont go away for a time period. even thou i aint sure what cause this, but thru out these yrs i can see a few common things, im guessing mayb these trigger it. Hot fry food, there goes my fav fry chicken zz, heat, dust, dan sebagainya. But 1 of the things im nt sure is stress. I dont know how ppl define stress, but study last min for finals wif very low carry marks + 3 papers in consecutive days is not stress to me, cos i wont feel itchy when i stressing out my mind, mayb im enjoying cramping shits in my head, @@ but after plyin a dota game, no matter win or lose, it happens. So means plyin game to me is gaining stress, study can release stress? it might be true for my case, i wont be extra happy after getting an A or get very very sad wif a D. but i feel like shit when i lose a game

For studies, getting low carry marks is my own fault, studying last min for finals is fun, so no matter wat marks i get, i deserve it. Well it's the same if u ply RPG game (smthn like pokemon) if u fail to catch that pokemon or lost, its ur own fault, u deserve it, nth to be stress out or sad, ur lost doesnt affect anyone, i dont regret nt pouring more effort, cos while im nt studying, im doin smthn else, is definitely less important than studies but that moment is decided by me, so nth to be regret of. But to me, ppl that ply RPG r weird, cos u r plyin alone, wasting so much time on 1 character, and after u complete the game, u buy another one and start clearing the stages again, i mean, WHATS SO FUN OF PLAYING AND WINNING ALONE? this kind of ppl definitely are able to sing k, yamcha, and watch movie alone. WEIRD!

i dont like to solo, the feeling of being alone, it isnt lonely, but smthn else. whats the meaning of winning smthn alone, u earn the title of winner, champion, but u r alone, no one noe how much hard work u pour out, no one is on par wif u, and so wat u clear every stage of the game, it feel so meaningless, totally is spending ur free time alone. u stay at home study everyday, and u get A for every subj, u might feel that u achieve smthn, but to me, u r just clearing stage in a freaking fast pace with super high score, i cant reli understand ppl that are able to study and memorize terms, how can u spend ur time in a quiet room wif books, all the words and terms, so boring... not in a bad way, i respect u guys, its smthn that i can never do in my life.

So whats the diff between clearing stage alone and clearing stage together? to show off how good you r? I nvr understood this too, cos i only played games wif my bro, and kids chasing around when i was in SJKC, i nvr actually tried co-op games. Its diff from MMORPG, means maplestory type of games whr ppl on9 and start plying a role and do ques + up lvl together, i dont like those games either, u nid to slowly pump up ur levels, buy items, a waste of time, its nothing diff from studies, 打不完的关，读不完的书, TM 想到就怕. The coop that im still plyin now is bball and dota, whats the diff between this 2 and other games? 1 is u can never win alone no matter how much hard work u pour in (solo bastards 问你死未) and it hav a score/time limit to end the game.

If u r thinking this, no matter how much hard work u pour in, it doesnt necessarily help u in winning the game, u r damn right, coop games r like ur life, trying to survive alone is suicide, so u r a genius or wat so ever, u think u alone can settle everythn? there are no fix bosses to fight, no mid terms no finals, everythn u do, the whole process decides ur result, there r no text books to help u, mayb u can refer past years (youtube pro people gameplays), but watching doesnt mean u can do it, and what they do might nt help to win too :D every game is full of surprises, full of hope, full of disappointments, we share the victory, we share the lost, we help each other out, we save each other ass, cos no one is perfect, so i dont bother becoming perfect, people endure my temper and illogical ideas, and i try to be useful for what i can do, i make full use of the things im good at

For coop games, a victory is very fulfilling, cos if u ply wif 4 ppl, that makes u feel 5 times happier, of cos if u lose, u will feel 5 times sadder, 5 fello lost, is a given. For me, i learn a lot of stuffs thru those games, it sums up into who i am now, when i see people do this, i keep wondering why and i ll try to learn, nt just in terms of technical skills, but some real good soft skills, when ppl done wrong, scolding them stupid, noob, idiot wont solve the problem, people take their time to explain and show me ways to improve, i do the same, if u r willing to listen, im willing to explain, and im willing to listen, improve and fix the mistakes. i hate ppl that assume things, "he should know this, it should be like this", what shit is like this? u ll never noe if u never try, he ll nvr noe if u never tell, so stop being a bitch and tell him up front, if u say i shouldnt shout so much its irritating, i ll actually reflect on it and try to keep quiet abit more often

So here comes the angry part, pinoy is a short form used for filipina, in dota 2, most pinoy players r selfish, noob but talk big, not all cos i noe some very good filipina players that r polite, but majority killed the good... so when u match up with a pinoy, u r consider doomed... pinoy now doesnt just stands for filipina, it stands for selfish and.... sry for the innocent guys... its very frustrating when they start to do watever they wan and screw the game up, but u cant speak tagalog so u basically cant do a shit except replying bobo putaXXXna. but for ur own friends being a pinoy that screw u up, after u had explain to them thousands of times, i really cant take it, its like u collect all the trusts i gav u, and buang laut feed goldfish, actually a sry could had solve everything, but for those ppl that think they din do anythn wrong and actually blame everythn bck on u, dun ask me how that feels, im feeling it, a lot these days. If u r innocent, u ll feel angry, and sad, disappointing, no more plyin wif this guy. But what if u r not sure weather u did wrong or nt, u ll lose confidence, confused, no more plyin this game. It occurs to me, there r times i gav up on ppl, there r times i gav up on myself, either way, it felt like shit, **im feeling like shit**

Here i kept thinking, is just a game, why so serious? i sincerely think that a game that all 5 ppl giv in all they got is the main point of playing the game, i don like people that say, "we nid 1 more person, is fine that u duno how to play, just join in we r short handed" so u 4 win the game happily, and the 5th person stand there doin nth but earn that victory, how will he feel? if its basketball, u try to giv him the ball to let him feel that at least he participated, but he cant even grab ur pass properly and the ball roll to the opponent, how will he feel? if u bring him in, teaching him is the least u can do, is always the attitude, skills doesnt matter, u r responsible on his feelings, is just a game, and its suppose to be JUST A GAME, but u played wif a person's feeling, the feeling of being useless, extra, pasu bunga, he nvr asked for it, no one shud ever experience that, even if he volunteer to be ur pot, u shudnt hav let him, if u persuade someone to do smthn, nvr, ever, leave him out. its suppose to express how angry i was after losing a game, but i end up explaining why am i so into coop type of games, finally i can sleep, =)))

3/9

today i screw a practical test and a presentation, i think i ll pass thou, so i wasnt that sad. But the after effect was horrible, the teacher laughed when she saw my paper, and the lab teacher say he was dissapointed with my presentation. I wont fail, im quite sure bout it, but wats tis feeling that is annoying me, its just some stupid presentation, and since born i am alrdy mentally and physically prepared to screw all these, well i guess i wasnt ready enough, feeling stressed and down :( dai sei, see nxt time assgn wan do earlier or nt la stupid fello

2/9

I watched a lot of dramas and movies for the past week, trust me you dont wana know how much i watched, when its getting closer to exam period, my urge for releasing stress gets higher. kissanime.com, my favourite website to watch anime is down... and right before its down, i discover there is kisscartoon, kissmanga and kissasian. I wasnt interested at first, but now my animes are gone, i might as well try the others. Kisscartoon is the best website if u wana dig back all ur cartoons, ultraman, power rangers, teen titans, dexter lab, its all there with complete episodes and english subs, but its under maintenance too...

Kissasian, contains all the drama and movies of all asian country, thai, kor, jpn, hindi, u search u get, highest resolution possible and new release too. I watched blood, big man, sunny, pinocchio, how many dramas and movie i hitted on... i am so dead this sem, well i wont fail i guess, mayb 4Cs? make it 5 then haha.


And the one that make me wana write this is ----------------------------------

The Classic (2003).

I have too many reasons to watch this.





First the genre, melodrama and romance, the most important factor that make me to watch, i can never resist watching a movie having this 2 as combo.

Second is the OST that is very frequently used in lots of korean shows, no eke nan, nan eke no. Duno how to describe a song, but this is just, simple and beautiful :D

Last but not least, Son Ye Jin, a goddess~ Innocent look, beautiful smile, imba acting skills, pure mixture of cute and sexy, how can you mother f*****s not fall in love?!

This 2 hours, its all about love, love and love, full of classic. Write letters, walking beside the river, recite poems. Boring? not at all, cos its a K-drama, u know they wont get together, shits will happen, somebody is gonna die, and u know u r gonna cry~ watch this with your heart, and 2 hrs of ur life will be meaningfully occupied, and better watch alone, so u can shout and cry without ppl looking at you :D <3 nbsp="" p="">

23/8

一个人

29/7

只有在得空到没事干才写blog吗？肤浅！有灵感就得写，你TM以为每次都有东西写吗？这样写书写歌这种工作不就很好赚？蛋都生不出一粒写个屁！So，哥的灵感，永远都是，明天考试... 虽然明天，后天，下个拜一都要考试，但是读书这种东西... 迟点先啦~ 为分数搏命这种东西ne style aniya~ 

虽然小弟发了毒誓不再看WGM，但誓言这种东西一向都是当饭吃的，有毒大个便就搞定了，天打雷劈我家的避雷针 is high quality~ 明知道是骗人的小弟还是乖乖的 spam 着看，不知不觉两个礼拜在家就是一直在看... 但那么久以来都没有一个Couple最后有在一起，我的感情就一直被欺骗着，但小弟犯贱，请继续欺骗我吧！一看就看了很多个，其中最Best的还是 LTE couple (song jaerim + kim soeun), 2young (park seyoung + jang wooyoung) and extreme (jinwoon + junhee). 其实经典的也很强，adam, dimple and nickhun+victoria，不过旧的Graphic真的烂到脸都看不清楚，好伤眼睛... 

看了很多很多集，发现了每个女生最爱的共同点不过3个... 健壮的身体，熟练的料理 + 擅长玩音乐。其实应该是帅，有钱 + 成熟的，不过上得了电视，当然是帅咯... 歌手演员，当然有钱咯... 十几岁就踏出社会，当然成熟咯... 6样东西小弟一个都没有，有个洞出来把我埋了吧... TT 不过现在最好看的还是最新的 jonghyun + seungyeon, 做到很真，发展到很美丽，假如最后你他妈没娶她我真的会被那个Script和演技Stun到傻眼，节目一完两个就跟着完蛋meh，那里对得起我们这种观众，我每个礼拜就是等着看你们两个的浪漫，3个Couple一起播我Skip Skip Skip 就只看你们两个，Anime，Running Man，Digital Signal  Processing Exam，Communication System Assignment，全都丢了，就让你们欺骗我的感情，明知是个坑，傻傻踩下去，为搏君一笑～ me reli is a 白痴...

7/7

its 30 mins before i go for my data communication exam, i blog because im gan jiong? come on so nt happening, i just finish a couple series in we got married. I started it few days ago, i had very very good mood since then. This shit is addicting, surprising, and yea romantic, and i started with song jaerin and kim soeun. I change a lot after watching this, especially the word fat defined in my dictionary, i will never, ever call a girl fat again, never. And after the last episode, i what lj cb mood also gone, and i swear i will NEVER WATCH ANOTHER EPISODE of this shit, how can u mess wif people feelings just like that, 哥连夜煲煲煲到最后一集, 觉都不睡书都不温，你给我看这些?! waa, WAA, 这平复不了的心情，该如何是好... waa, really is 野不可以乱吃，戏不可以乱看, i don even wana touch pc after today, waa, mai li an dwe... its worse than watching the people die in winter sonata, or watever sadder shit u can think of, its so real, so much love, so much passion, and wala 1 mission card: "ur virtual weeding ends today?!" u guys, good job burning the card, best chemistry ever. 等下的试要怎样考？连开书的心情都没有，wah really is wat mood also dont have, dont ever try this show, i dont noe bout u, but i cant take another couple, nono!!!

24/6

无聊, 还不是讲笑的无聊, 是非常非常无聊. 你怎样看都觉得我应该很忙才对, 我有充足的娱乐，还得天天去上课，有戏就看, 有game就玩, 时不时弹弹琴，抒抒情, 何谓无聊? 哥觉得无聊就是，以上所有的活动, 都是一个人做的.... 小弟沦落到要去喝茶如此肥的活动, 还堕落到打麻将如此老的运动, 都只是贪他们不是RPG (role player game, solo), 可以3-4P, 还可以7-8P. 像我这样，一天假如只有早课，基本上午餐后，就有一个人的房间私人活动，要驾车去哪里都可以，钱用脑去花绝对够用，电脑室有神一般的Internet + 不用本的冷气，有一大堆手机游戏玩，一大堆动漫韩剧追, 房间前面有篮球场，后面有游泳池，下面有gym，整个Uni都是jogging跑道, 照理来说无聊这两个字不应该出现, 但哥就是犯贱，宁愿回家找损友们打打牌，喝喝茶，开开杠，唱唱歌，心里自然有说不出的愉快; 一个人打球有啥意思？一个人跑步有啥意思？一个人看戏有啥意思？一个人游泳有啥意思？这时又会讲了，那么你要多少人陪你看戏才爽哦? 所以说小弟是最讨厌追剧了，自己看自己爽，不要讲别的，哥连A片看多都会闷，那你又会问，A片都要人家陪你看？！讲真，一大堆人看才有气氛嘛 HAHAHAHAHA 总之到最后还是闷，真是他妈寂寞的大学，现在还puasa，更加难看到人, 已经没几个朋友了，现在人影也看不见... 幸好找到两个新K-ka，哥现在唯有苦苦等待，这最后一个礼拜50%的大嘴巴折扣，请TM jio me out bah!!!

11/6

在这个没有朋友的大学，每个礼拜5都是天堂，每天只想着回家，但却不期待毕业。我在Moral 3遇到一个新朋友 （yes, its moral, and its 3) 他Mmu Electronic eng degree 毕业，现在在这里读IT，我听到傻了，又来读3年书，酱看不开meh? 他的理由竟然是，做工作久，就会累了... 你他妈毕业再去做个两年又要回去读过，不懂那条根Sot了... 不过做久会累这句我知道不是假的，especially industrial or factory, 挨不挨得过是问题，值不值得又是问题，真他妈不想毕业... 但在这没朋友的地方，也是... 我的唯一室友因为两次GPA不过2所以慢我很多了，突然变了我的学弟... 他1Week 才 2 Days class，剩我一人... 不是讲没朋友，Cina 犹如 Panda，每个人都认识我，但话却没能多说... 种族？语言？风俗？不知道.. 小弟一向都不Racist，又不Sexist，但就是没话题... 今天新的Lab partner，竟然什么都不会，我还要solo整个LabReport，我在想，竟然有一天有人需要靠我，这个世界到底怎么了.... 人类开始要抄我的答案，问我学业上的问题，约我出来Group Study，你们傻了吗？幸好明天有朋友Jio，这班从不让我失望的A-Level猪朋狗友，是我唯一不后悔去methodist读书的理由，比我认识的任何朋友都更ON，更团结，大家住得再远，也一起唱K，一起看戏，一起吃饭，一起上云顶，一起越州，Sob TT... 

在这没有朋友，没有娱乐，没有真爱的大学... 我... 又在期待着明天的到来...

2/6

I love to chat, no matter its fb or whatsapp, no matter is talk shit or talk hair, i enjoy chatting. But then, i hate to answer this question, "whn ur class start?" I hate the fact that my class started ytd, so when ppl ask me i dont really feel like answering, unless they hav a perfectly good reason to ask, which i dont think they hav i finally choose to ignore. U wan jio me out gime the damn date and time, most dulan ppl ask me free or nt, i free or nt depends on who you are. Chau jio? never free, U jio, i ll think bout it, Girl jio, always free.(doesnt happen too often TT) Dont wan jio jiu dun leme noe, i will pretend i duno mah, guys also ask question like sissy, xblh pakai, RECYCLE BAH! I tell u i gt class nan dao u jiu dun jio me meh, depends on who u r 小弟半夜从校舍飞回来陪你, mayb it sounds ridiculous to u, but why nt? 你请，我愿啊! Mayb u juz wan a cup of tea, it doesnt nid to be major stuffs like birthdays or farewells, 小弟还是非常愿意从校舍飞回来陪你喝那杯死人茶!! Or mayb ytd my mood very bad, u noe la gt jam whn drive, and everyday timetable 8-6 wif 5 hrs break in the middle, thn 8am class teacher ffk, all the old friends diff sections, 30pg intern report haven type, haven manage to get a room in uni yet AND SO ON. But like i say, its always who u are, it doesnt matter what im going thru, or whn my class start, not a damn problem nigga, 因为，是你.

27/5

After working almost 3 months, i realize an engineer, has no life, at all. Our company build machine to manufacture automation parts, so this shit must be able to mass produce somethn at the end of the day, so its 1 very important project that cost 20-30M, cant possibly screw it. The project engineers and design engineer, when no project jiu 准时到，准时回；whn project like this kind of magnitude, 不管你几点到，你就是不能早回. Yea this project is big or whatever, but the ordered part belum arrived yet, wat u wan us to do? 没东西做都不能回 meh..? thats the thing, the manager jiu shi bu syok u can bck home early, u nth to do?? he die die also find u things to do, for my case, throw rubbish 😤😤!! nt important, but my engineers hav to do kuli work, even the design engineer hav to hlp speeding up the process, design finish liao dou canot bck home, diao, do 2 engineer work, OT mana ada? Yes engineers hav no OT, fck this shit x2. 货没有，钱没有，who wana OT?!?! 前世欠鸟你啊!!! 

Ytd, they were so stress then suddenly they start joking during lunch time, jom sing k. Thn someone say, yap belanja, diu lo night sing wan me belanja sot liao. But then they took care of me so much (everyone except the fck up manager), cheak sia dompet the new yr $$ haven use yet, suddenly sot liao, JIU TONIGHT. They all stun liao 1 sec, then str say ON, so there comes this long night. This whole day was quite free, the ang moh frm some duno wat company come see product, boss nid wipe their shoe so no kacau us, then project beside is done, so extra 3-5 people come help, 小弟吃蛇没人得空鸟.... But, 30 mins before 6pm, that stupid metal arrive... Its 1 of my dao gors thing, have to help him do, do sia do sia do dao 6.30, gt design problem, bla bla angle wat so ever damn problem the shit canot fit in, so the manage come and stress, me and my dai gor faz faz zao lou 😄😄 best worker award. 

The other 3 dai gor is alrdy waiting outside, engineer is so selfish HAHA then we go eat, duno wan eat wat in malay area, so we went to... mcd... Dai gor 1 over work stress, dai gor 2 design problem stress, dai gor 3 kena scold by boss stress, dai gor 4 broke his hp screen stress, 看来唱K不请我就真的太不会做人鸟... go counter, let us see price, 28 x 5, some say dont wan i pay, but my own supervisor actually convince them... =.= damn him. Then the cashier say make member card gt discount, everyone say yea, another 40 gone... then duno what the cashier say in the end only 140, 3 hrs, 8pm, bottomless drink, dai dao lan, but 为何小弟我还是不禁有上了车的感觉... 

Mad fellos, shouting stress out non stop, my supervisor sing new cina song, 唱功 3 times better than me, and he is 40 yrs old, a-ma-fckin-zing, 相逢恨晚啊! sing wif diff people song also very diff, half of the day just sitting down listening to some very new/very old song... and yuan lai when sing li kai di qiu biao mian, sing dao stand up, jump sofa, throw shoe, is all very normal act, sry pik for 用异类的眼睛 judge u HAHAHA whn go home we saw a student promotion rm10, YES IS RM10 my eye no see wrong, WTF is wrong wif this shit, why nvr hear people say one, stupid website dou no show, tmd rm10 1pm-7pm i will go everyday after class, i think is 6hr rm10, no shit joke this is!! 

Well in the end i reach home at 1pm, and woke up after 5hr slp... gg hav to snake somewhr liao, lets find a hole to slp under the damn machine :D

15/5

Watch a lot of kdrama since last month (mayb a lot for me), I finally finish my 3rd drama yesterday 2am (😭😭now tired like hell). I watched kill me heal me, ghost, then the heirs. From physco to crime investigation, then the heirs. I duno wat genre is the heirs.... i know what i watched, and i dont know what i watched, its love i guess... if i draw a relationship tree, its gonna be so complicated til my eyes go @@ main charac lee min ho hav a fiancee, whose mother is a president of bla bla, then gonna married another president, his son is kim woo bin, enemy of main character become future stepbrother of his fiancee. Then main charac father is another president, his secretary is the fiancee de mum de ex, then his son had a gf which is main character de ex, and a best friend (main charac, park shin hye). then main character hav a bro that like a girl which is a tutor of main character best friend + senior, which eventually fall in love wif main character fiancee cos main charac fall in love wif park shin hye (standard), eventually the girl that his bro like became teacher for every rich kid mention above and the rich papa/mama are shareholders of the same company. Then park sh mama is lee mh mama maid, main charac mama is a 小三, and the  正宫 is the schools principle for rich kids. 小弟也不大明白我所说的废话，不过不打出来会有压郁症，现在舒服多了. >.<>.< :D

3/5

Everyday see people kill 20, 30, 40, but me myself is not a good farmer so i never actually had the chance to kill a lot, but today, wif a great team, and some taufu opponents, my days finally arrived TT

I cant actually post it anywhr except here, its nth to brag of, cos everyone will say yao can do, anyone can do.


Well to me is yao last time canot do, now can do. Of cos its not 100% my skills, i have helps here and then but still, i have to thank the stunners and those idiots frm the other side that just wana carry. I ll hav good dreams for the nxt week. finally, after yrs of nightmares.

13/4

I have a pinky, make it 2. For some reason, both of them hate bending very much. When the other fingers are straight, i have no ctrl of the pinky at all, it will only curve when others curve, but sometimes, it still choose to stay straight.

I am aware of this fact since day 1, when i am playing games, holding mouse, plyin piano, and ***** in toilet, i do realize the pinky is not quite obedient. But it doesnt post much problem to me for the past 21 yrs so i never actually give a shit.

BUT TODAY, i am asked to do a simple yet not so simple job, tidy up the wires by covering it. . 

Its a EE box, full with wires. :D





Covering is easy, as long as ppl cant see from the outside, inside how you 左塞右塞，硬塞硬塞，再撈亂骨頭 dou no prob, its a bit leceh but i can handle this much.





 So what is not easy?
THE AC IS FREEKING ON.


So you should be able to guess the story, i climb up a chair, put the cover in, But then got 1 wire came out, so i use my hand to push it in,

Suppose the 1st row(abit red one and gt hole) is 240V (1 hit KO), and the 2 white biji below is taking in 489V (critical kill) from the "anthena" above (which provide voltage for every (10) ee boxes having duno how many V to burn my ass upside down). So for the 1st row, the red thing is the cover, the hole inside is the screw(directly touching the wire), so if my finger ter-put inside means...

So what happen is when i push the wire in, i make sure (100% sure) i avoid the whole thing, BUT my pinky somehow is... out, so it ter-touch the outside(red cover) and i was hit 24V (LUCKY SHIT) in 1sc... I was on the floor stunning for 5 mins, best experience in life, why drink smoke and drugs when u can be hitted with 24V free anytime by just touching the damn ee box? peace :D

8/4

I made a new friend call sia. He is master in mech engineering frm northingham in just the age of 23. You would think that he is some kind of genius or what BUT in frnt of me he is just-a-human :D since he is the youngest engineer there our friendship grow so much that we have like a 4-yrs friendship but we just met 4 weeks ago. So he tell me, there is a girl he like. I say u dont talk so much, fast fast confess, or else... i didnt really finish my sentence, so lets just leave that hanging. But sia is so selfish, dont even wana let me see his target punya picture (i know, he is just shy).

So for the past few days i have been brainwashing him to confess, using some k-drama, past experience, bullshits... He is a very bad talker, he talk so soft... as soft as zq, and he is as quiet as hung, and he speak like jh (str to the point without any bullshits). So yea, very bad in talking.. so after a few days discussion (i am so 8gua) he decide to jio her out during labors day (fri) so there is sat and sun to not give her extra reason to reject, somemore its 3 weeks be4 appointment, yea :D And he say they only met a few times, i say 距離不是問題, i meant how much they know each other, but he say 距離就是問題, she lives in Johor, gg. I didnt discourage him at all, i say i would drive him down johor is he got enough balls to buy her flower, i got enough seeing anymore love go lost by distance, buried over time and forgotten in the end.

Even after all the words i give him, i am just all talk, u think i am able to confess to the girl i like now? That idea wont even cross my head, and here i am acting like a 情聖 reading out my 聖經, forcing people to accept my ideals. wat if people is satisfy with his current relationship? what if the girl unfriend him after he confess? what if he suicide after he got rejected? I feel so irresponsible now, the older you got, your brain start thinking in another angle which somehow rotated a few thousand degree and mess up all the wires inside. I used to hate what im studying, uni makes me believe that 感情是可以培養的, i was expecting a 一見鍾情 for years and now everything changed. Thats why i tell him, you dont do it now, few more years ltr you wont remember why you love (her), and you lagi wont try to love (her) anymore. He say I am the only friend asking him to confess, all his friends ask him to wait the girl come KL to play, i shoot him:她TM帶男友來liao啦，分分鐘是老公，牽埋兒子叫你叔叔，看你那時還告個屁!

My SJKC was a very closed life, guys dont even talk to girls, everyone speak cina and split to gangs, 河水不犯井水. then til college i realize not talking to other people will cause you "death", cos you lost gang, alone, and dont possess any information. And after learning all those interactive stuff, come up to uni, even this company, is just like my SJKC, cina dont talk with each other much, split gang, guys dont talk to girls (AT ALL), malays stick with each other (majority), no other races here... I am most probably the best english speaker in the company, i feel ashamed... Come here no matter how hard you dont have chance to talk with any girls (engineering + diff department + cina babi style, see friends only talk), if my working life is like this, i am pretty sure i will end up a monk, 真是前途無量... i am gonna do sales.... imma hook customers :D

24/3

Come out only know all these things, nt everyone likes clever people, nt everyone is honest, nt everyone is friendly. So stressful, u will hav to act like u r stupid, pretend to be honest and in the same time sound friendly, or else 1 mistake will send u to hell. Of cos there r pure good will people out there that can be a friend, but others are colleague, boss, staffs and strangers, being stephen chow is a must in daily life. I duno will acting stupid now still helps, but i ll keep my mouth shut for the next 10 weeks, masuk kerja keluar, and you guys wont even remember the day i came in and ciao. BLEK! 

Fully auto ECU Manufacturing Machine for power steering.

3/3

ytd i did smthn so unexpected, i meet chau. he wan to come my hse visit, i think anyone that wana visit u meaning they respect u, no matter wat i could not reject this solid reason, i actually let him in. he wana d2 wif me, well i cant just say u suck plyin wif u is a waste of my time, so i m forced to add him bck to the friend list (currently i blocked him, of cos). i nvr make a noise to comment on wat he play, cos i dun care anymore. i ll always nag/advice/scold ppl during games when things dont go according to manner, i believe ur passion and commitment for the team will compensate ur lack of skills, true right? selfish bastards? si kai la! nvr once ppl state my mistake during games, of cos i know i made a lot of mistake, they just dun wana say, well u keep in ur heart is ur business, i see dao anythn bu sun yan i will str stab u in the heart, see how long u can keep, truth damage bonds, but as long as it doesnt break, it will grow stronger, i guess. but ini org aku dah x peduli dah, dia mau apa sukahati ja la. then he jio me to his hse, i accept without question, he shui gak, but his mama watch me grow for 17 yrs, i watch his sisters grow for duno how many yrs, so me and me sis went. he actually gav up gaming and suggest sing k, i was like O.O?? we actually sang for 4 hrs non stop, wif our sisters, well good also, i dont nid to chat much wif him, it saves my ears. 1 time i went out, someone tell me that the other one got depress cos i din care bout wat she say or doesnt even look at her properly wif both eyes. that situation was cos i gt nth to talk to her mah, nt close also, but when she talking i also got look at her u ppl din see nia. then 1 time i ply bball, the opponent got so angry and he ply very rough, i was told that he was angry cos i 整场连正眼也不瞄他一眼. i was thinking, so u ppl enjoy when i look at u a lot izit...? why would u even nid my acknowledgement from the start? i had a reason, i was planning how the game gonna flow, so actually nt just him, i din look much at my opponent cos im thinking a lot, while looking at my own team mates, and bouncing the ball in the same time, whr got time to look at u? u wan then u team me la... u say i lanci... i got wat to lc i also duno... but ytd, really, i m avoiding any eye contact and continuation of any conversation, anythn he ask or say, there is only 1 answer from me, "是吗？我不懂喔... 没关系，不重要" i very bad mah? ppl ajak sing k i ignore ppl.. yea, i think so too, just like u :3

today my sis spm result come out, u dun nid to noe wat she get, but u noe wat, she got C for her BC. since standard 5, she had been reading novels, those few hundred pages book full of cina words no matter is romance or fiction, she actually got C, i was laughing for like 10 mins non stop. she is wearing glasses cos of this, she hide in the toilet wif her phone reading the novel she downloaded(cos if room got light mama will tiok us), haiz wat a joke... now everytime when she open her mouth, talking bull shit, i will be like: wa, u talk so good, but cina got C, she cant even argue a word =D nt to say i lc, mayb im just jealous, of wat? i cant explain properly,  but the reactions when we both got result are different, i had always been envy of ppl like this, so little pressure, my cousin who skip class everyday, join gangster, smoke, but spm got 1 A and fail 1 (only), my aunt happy dao wan open champagne, even my mama congratz him. i always tot that i alrdy understand, that life was nvr fair, but when the unfairness happens in frnt of me, that feeling just come out, mayb this is the reason why im having a bad mood today. i always wanted to stay stupid, or to say im willing to be stupid, mayb im just a ungrateful whining brat, but im in this middle of the sea stuck between 2 land, 无法向前，却无路可退, the land behind doesnt belong to me anymore, but to reach the frnt, abit far la... this is wat happen when u r having a holiday and u haven start work yet, ur mind pop out all those mm 3 mm 4 punya benda and write to dmg ppl's eye, haiz... slp bah

25/2

weak, totally weak, canot continue this shit, is time to execute operation B, in order to face myself TT

14/2

today was never a special day for me, never.. but everytime you are drive into a corner, things that u dont wana remember somehow just like to come out of no whr. How i spend my midnight, i came bck on 9pm heard ppl asking for yamcha, and straight lead me to giv rejection. I dont see why i should go, its boring, and i just ate, and i found out that this tea session exist after i go through the most dreadful paper in my life, so i shall pass. I am thinking of relaxing, maybe dota? then ni pass by the traffic light, i decide to Uturn from behind maluri to cheak out the court. Its usually pack, but that doesnt stop me from checking, and finally this day come. empty court. I was so excited and grateful that i skip tea and come here, shooting free throw alone clears my mind. Then someone came, oh its kingz from COC :D we played 1v1, of cos i cant beat him, he can be consider as a full time basketball player, he earn money while playing game no matter win or lose, his fulltime is a car-window sticker. but recently he got a new job to coach SMKTBM girls team. He told me bout his story coaching them for a week, from total beginners to msswp 1st runner up and no3 (U15, U18). I can see from his eyes, sincerity, wet eyes, how happy he is even though they lost to chong hwa, they created their own history. Envy was my only emotion back then, rather than struggling wif papers, i rather struggle wif my life. Not only that, i taught more than 3 of my friends somethn and they cant do it until now, or maybe they done want to. Of cos not everythn that i said is correct, but the feeling of ignored, u noe? nvm i noe jiu hao liao. Girls in 1 week can play interzone, our gang play 4 yrs still losing to kids, pls this is not kiasu, is pure disappointment TT From envy, other feeling like sad and angry come out everywhr.... suddenly no mood liao... then go home, door lock, so go lim hse slp... and this is juz the start of the day... valentines day,,,

noon dota, lose 3 games, disappointment again,,. tmr gt exam? whr got mood to study liao.. i went back to the basketball court again, my slipers are torned to half, forced to wear shoe. In the end, bball is the only thing that calms my mind, u have to focus 120% on the court, no matter is ally enemy ball or floor, u dont pay attention to the floor u might pokai :D well, i played my own, still got lose, but i dont nid to be angry for the team sake, so its quite satisfying

night go zh hse, mama got biskut giv his mama, my leg alrdy lembik + not enof slp, but nvm if not giv now weekdays lagi susah, me and lim go, aunty see us, the phrase of the day:
2 of u wear red shirt, come see aunty on Valentines..... wan dan liao lo... :D

5/2

LAI LIAO LA!!! THE FEEL LAI LIAO!! 3 assignment deadlines + presentation tmr and exam on the nxt 2 days, i have less than 48 hrs and i am typing blog, LAI LIAO LA. i am actually more excited compare to stress, no words can explain how i feel now and i dont even know how to use proteus (a software that generate circuit), how to present tmr? how how AHAHAHAHA, wo mama i wan sot gao liao, 2 more subj haven study and im worrying bout how to generate a circuit, wait how bout the other 2 assgnment? which one shud i start doing 1st? study or assgn? nvm i am not asking anyone, bu yong fan dao ni men, i will answer it myself, i am quite curious wat action i will make, how arr, wtf am i thinking i also duno, now i think i must be a M, very serious M, i am enjoying this moment, i dont regret relaxing ytd, or the day be4, or more, ahh study is only interesting 48 hrs be4 the exam start, is this climax? or ending?

2/3

I am nt suppose to slp for the nxt 2 hrs due to somethn, so nid to type smthn to occupy time. Well finals is coming but study is not in the option, i rather write blog. Today is nt reli a good day, i had a bad morning, bad breakfast, lost a d2 game, failed a coc atk, want go eat lunch but mum drove my car out, even lost in "unblock me" 7-6 to jk, then go home fail another d2 game, go bball lose 2 games to kids straight, emo go mamak drink the teh'o today so tasteless, go bck home lose another d2 game, omg enough.... i juz realize i din study at all today, no matter how chill i am, i shudnt be chill anymore... rite..?

I choose to bck uni tonight even though there aint any class anymore, its the only way to stop me frm d2. my normal route is jln segambut, jln duta, then highway straight to serdang, it would take me at most 1hr and if i go 120km/h 35 mins also can reach. But when i reach the divider, suddenly i feel like taking jalan kuching. suppose if i take the turning in frnt i can link bck to KL and take the highway, somehow i feel like trying the cheras highway, so i took it. Its fun, i am totally entertained by the 1 hr trip to get out frm the stupid silk highway, juz to escape cheras nid 1hr, how fckin big are u man... then when i turn in to kajang, i kinda lost my way between kajang and putrajaya, then get lost for another 15 mins finally i escape sg chua to bangi, then in the end open waze to escape the stupid highway... silk highway is very sempit, construction everywhr frm connought til kajang, the roads keep merging and spliting, but its fun, driving a new road clear my head, getting lost bring me excitement, reaching my room makes me more happy than winning any games that i lost for the day, so nvm la, finally i get my mood bck, but the day is ending, so today is still a bad day....

be4 the long trip, i put wagakki band songs into my phone, which lighten my whole long and never ending but it actually ended in the end trip. i like this band very much, guitar, bass, drum, 三味線, 尺八, 和太鼓, gu zheng, and the singer sings like 吟詩, no wear specs also 眼鏡照跌. their main song is a cover for vocaloid senbonzakura. i dont reli like vocaloid, its a 3d projection of created anime character singing a song tuned by pc, well since its pc sync the pitch is inhuman high, but it doesnt attract me much. but how this band perform this song, duno la, i simply like it, 愛一個人TM是不需要任何理由的 :D it just made my day eventhough the day dont have much left LOL 
Senbonzakura -- wagakki band

22/1

今早我起来尿尿，看见隔壁房，等开着。是TM 5am，不是开玩笑。他突然走出来，我赞他勤劳，他说他有考试。我回房，坐着，看回自己，是我太轻松了吗？我自己也有4，5个assgn deadline，又不是考很好，我有什么资格轻松！但是我还真没有点点想温书的心.... 又没动力，又没兴趣，你问我为什么选这科，我告诉你我每天都在后悔.... 我看见自己室友，因上学期GG了两科，Ptptn这Sem不付，爸妈从Epf都要硬硬挤钱给他，他也打死不放弃EE，因为他爱电子，我其实是非常敬佩的... 但他每天都得花几个钟应付两个女生，不用怀疑，是两条船；每天都不温书，煲剧比我凶；上课一半出去讲电话，不回来那一种... 如此典范在我身边，我怎么会想读呢... 我讲真很7想Unfriend他，但他除了不读书之外，就没不好的地方了... dilemma... 眼看身边的华人朋友，上课再闷都目不转睛... 我却在打Blog... 我室友？他在房间睡觉... 我唯一一个优点就是够淡定，够随便，但现在看回，这个淡定以后会不会害死我... 读书啊！！！剩两个礼拜罢了！！！等下，看完anime先吧....

2/1

Happy new year... well its a little late, who cares. 31/12 is the day whr normally ppl go dpc countdown, i remember every yr i will go chau place, walk to dpc, watch the mercun, then slp at his house. Actually, watching mercun, is boring, very boring, for me, i dont enjoy it, somemore with all the people there, annoying (宅男特色, gg dont want admit also canot liao) I remember i will always get sick after staying at chau house, 1 thing is his room is small, but he ask 8 guys to slp together, u know i would rather slp on the stairs than go pek wif them.

Then the night no one will wana slp, no matter how many times aunty come screw us, his sister go complain to papa, kita tak bagi 1 tahi langsung :D then someone discover this game, a combination of push ups + poker, we dont raise money, 伤感情 (not much left though), we raise the number of pumps we do. after a few Hundreds, finally someone is tired, so we can try to slp.



BUT those bastard will talk, talk, man talks, boy talks, girls talk (聊心事), how is ur siang rui, every fckin year. I have the habit of slpin early, u know like 10pm, 11pm, and they can talk til 4am, 0.0... and the next day, we got sick.


I remember last year, was the last year i do it, but i didnt go for the mercun, i sit in the k-room, keep singing til everyone come bck, then eat, the go back sing again. Even the girl (his relative) diam diam one, ignite sia also start singing liao, cos of how thick face + dont wan face style of singing. It was all good til they come back. Well chau just dont like to sing k, i think. So he would close it and ask us to ply stupid things with him, cards, chess, bb-gun shoot through paper (ok thats new, now i know how bored u are), whole night wasted, i would rather lose my voice, so diff our characteristic, interests and everything, its amazing how could we be friends for 15 years, and 13 of them r in the same school.

This year, i came back home, and my sis was goin to his house (our sis are friends too), she ask me to fetch,
i tell her: "my dear sis, ur bro is not at home, understand??"
sis: "huh?"
me: "我不在家，UNDERSTAND?"
sis: (Y)
when she come back, she tell me,
sis: "ppl ask me why u no come, i say u still at uni gt things to do, 厉害 leh??"
(有生之年第一次觉得自己亲妹妹好霖可爱)






1 yr can chg so many things, there r more, alot more things that had change, the person that i used to love, the things that i love to do, the song that i love to listen, even the underwear that i love to wear also canot fit liao (肥了，我会检讨，不用多心). I got to know myself more, exploit myself more, see how bad is myself, how good... nah nothing good, its getting clear when u r getting old, things that stay the same, they look the same, they are still the same, but how u see it, how u feel it, 昔日已非，差异决然.

 Though there is 1 thing that remains the same....