14/11

i love rain, to me its a very beautiful thing. I wont run if its raining heavily, cant escape anyway, i would gladly walk under the rain. I see ppl running like an idiot, ppl holding an umbrella and actually walk pass me, cars passing thru me wif monkeys inside looking at me, and many more funny funny shits. Rain wont kill anyway, no matter how heavy it is it makes u wet, at most. Sun? fuyoh u can die under it man. So we were balling, at night, thinking the rain just finished. Well the floor is wet, so we cant run, no one plyin serious, lots of chatting on the court, so much gay and bromance, and then rain come, everyone running, chicken fly dog walk, oni me walking away slowly. 

Kissing under the rain is romantic; sports under the rain is youth!! I truly think ppl tat had share this youth wif me will be best friends for life. But now seems like really left me, no point forcing wat u like on others, no diff frm direct sales; but i reli wana share out my passion to others, nt like someone keeping 2.6b in his own acc; but too much passion would juz scare my friends away... which, i don reli hav many left. Look back at chau, getting boycourt, cos of me (i think so), make me feel so guilty (i must be stupid thinking this), its happening to my bro, and my bro wana quit uni cos of this stupid reason. My parents were arguing bout this problem, my dad was furious, but my mum was sad, mum say bro don deserve this, dad say bro is stupid. Mum say she shud call and talk to him, dad say u shud juz leave him alone. So much love frm parents, well im nt jealous at all (definitely am), but nvm i dun care. 

I hav so many gangs, people say, Oh wow u hav so many friends, u can talk to anyone, i was like, hi and bye also consider talk? 你对朋友的定义太肤浅了吧? ppl call this 社交，i call this 滥交. I talked wif many kind of people, made my mind very versatile, flexible. I am willing to listen to anythn, well believe it or nt its up to me thou. But this make me classify ppl more, i become more 挑剔 choosing friend, i wan friend tat think like me, but everyone is unique, so mayb 50%? still too much? i hate people that talk bout logic and theory, realistic ppl shud juz die. I hate ppl that has a fixed mind, if u alrdy had ur own thoughts, its fine, but dont try to take out ur concept and argue while ppl talking for every little thing, annoying, ppl use fork eat noodles also wana kacau? I hate people that cant chat, people that come out wif a gang ended up playing phone whole day should juz fckin stay at home. I also hate people that are not considerate, no samples for this but juz try to see things frm my point of view. I hate ppl that doesnt improve, fatty getting fatter, blur getting more blur, 反省下啦. I hate people that doesnt comment, things that u like, u dont like, but all u say ok, how ppl know? things that ppl do wrong but u say its fine, how ppl know? arguing when ppl reli did smthn wrong is hlpin that person, and telling ur preference hlps improving our relationship. I really hated this, i gav up my first love for this reason, i gav up a few friendship for this reason. Well for friends there are vice versa situation, i try to argue wif people for the things they did wrong, i myself might be wrong thats why we argue, im nt teaching u, lets hav a discussion. 1 guy fck me bck upside down, 1 guy ignore me totally and 1 guy juz nod his head, chg another topic and make the same mistake again. I dont argue wif teachers, or strangers, or classmates. I argue wif best friends, cos we r bestfriends, but it doesnt seem that u guys think the same, im nt as weak as my bro, and if my friends boycourt me like chau, u stop right there, is nt u guys fire me, is i fire u guys. I would be lonely but i can still survive, BLEK, i don nid cabbages in my fruit basket, i dont even like vege, let my basket empty, its fckin fine. A friend told me he dont like my stupid stupid examples like cabbages, ok cool i ll stop talking like that, i listen, i reflect, i accept, i correct, no more stupid 比喻 frm today.