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ytd i did smthn so unexpected, i meet chau. he wan to come my hse visit, i think anyone that wana visit u meaning they respect u, no matter wat i could not reject this solid reason, i actually let him in. he wana d2 wif me, well i cant just say u suck plyin wif u is a waste of my time, so i m forced to add him bck to the friend list (currently i blocked him, of cos). i nvr make a noise to comment on wat he play, cos i dun care anymore. i ll always nag/advice/scold ppl during games when things dont go according to manner, i believe ur passion and commitment for the team will compensate ur lack of skills, true right? selfish bastards? si kai la! nvr once ppl state my mistake during games, of cos i know i made a lot of mistake, they just dun wana say, well u keep in ur heart is ur business, i see dao anythn bu sun yan i will str stab u in the heart, see how long u can keep, truth damage bonds, but as long as it doesnt break, it will grow stronger, i guess. but ini org aku dah x peduli dah, dia mau apa sukahati ja la. then he jio me to his hse, i accept without question, he shui gak, but his mama watch me grow for 17 yrs, i watch his sisters grow for duno how many yrs, so me and me sis went. he actually gav up gaming and suggest sing k, i was like O.O?? we actually sang for 4 hrs non stop, wif our sisters, well good also, i dont nid to chat much wif him, it saves my ears. 1 time i went out, someone tell me that the other one got depress cos i din care bout wat she say or doesnt even look at her properly wif both eyes. that situation was cos i gt nth to talk to her mah, nt close also, but when she talking i also got look at her u ppl din see nia. then 1 time i ply bball, the opponent got so angry and he ply very rough, i was told that he was angry cos i 整场连正眼也不瞄他一眼. i was thinking, so u ppl enjoy when i look at u a lot izit...? why would u even nid my acknowledgement from the start? i had a reason, i was planning how the game gonna flow, so actually nt just him, i din look much at my opponent cos im thinking a lot, while looking at my own team mates, and bouncing the ball in the same time, whr got time to look at u? u wan then u team me la... u say i lanci... i got wat to lc i also duno... but ytd, really, i m avoiding any eye contact and continuation of any conversation, anythn he ask or say, there is only 1 answer from me, "是吗？我不懂喔... 没关系，不重要" i very bad mah? ppl ajak sing k i ignore ppl.. yea, i think so too, just like u :3

today my sis spm result come out, u dun nid to noe wat she get, but u noe wat, she got C for her BC. since standard 5, she had been reading novels, those few hundred pages book full of cina words no matter is romance or fiction, she actually got C, i was laughing for like 10 mins non stop. she is wearing glasses cos of this, she hide in the toilet wif her phone reading the novel she downloaded(cos if room got light mama will tiok us), haiz wat a joke... now everytime when she open her mouth, talking bull shit, i will be like: wa, u talk so good, but cina got C, she cant even argue a word =D nt to say i lc, mayb im just jealous, of wat? i cant explain properly,  but the reactions when we both got result are different, i had always been envy of ppl like this, so little pressure, my cousin who skip class everyday, join gangster, smoke, but spm got 1 A and fail 1 (only), my aunt happy dao wan open champagne, even my mama congratz him. i always tot that i alrdy understand, that life was nvr fair, but when the unfairness happens in frnt of me, that feeling just come out, mayb this is the reason why im having a bad mood today. i always wanted to stay stupid, or to say im willing to be stupid, mayb im just a ungrateful whining brat, but im in this middle of the sea stuck between 2 land, 无法向前，却无路可退, the land behind doesnt belong to me anymore, but to reach the frnt, abit far la... this is wat happen when u r having a holiday and u haven start work yet, ur mind pop out all those mm 3 mm 4 punya benda and write to dmg ppl's eye, haiz... slp bah