25/2

weak, totally weak, canot continue this shit, is time to execute operation B, in order to face myself TT

14/2

today was never a special day for me, never.. but everytime you are drive into a corner, things that u dont wana remember somehow just like to come out of no whr. How i spend my midnight, i came bck on 9pm heard ppl asking for yamcha, and straight lead me to giv rejection. I dont see why i should go, its boring, and i just ate, and i found out that this tea session exist after i go through the most dreadful paper in my life, so i shall pass. I am thinking of relaxing, maybe dota? then ni pass by the traffic light, i decide to Uturn from behind maluri to cheak out the court. Its usually pack, but that doesnt stop me from checking, and finally this day come. empty court. I was so excited and grateful that i skip tea and come here, shooting free throw alone clears my mind. Then someone came, oh its kingz from COC :D we played 1v1, of cos i cant beat him, he can be consider as a full time basketball player, he earn money while playing game no matter win or lose, his fulltime is a car-window sticker. but recently he got a new job to coach SMKTBM girls team. He told me bout his story coaching them for a week, from total beginners to msswp 1st runner up and no3 (U15, U18). I can see from his eyes, sincerity, wet eyes, how happy he is even though they lost to chong hwa, they created their own history. Envy was my only emotion back then, rather than struggling wif papers, i rather struggle wif my life. Not only that, i taught more than 3 of my friends somethn and they cant do it until now, or maybe they done want to. Of cos not everythn that i said is correct, but the feeling of ignored, u noe? nvm i noe jiu hao liao. Girls in 1 week can play interzone, our gang play 4 yrs still losing to kids, pls this is not kiasu, is pure disappointment TT From envy, other feeling like sad and angry come out everywhr.... suddenly no mood liao... then go home, door lock, so go lim hse slp... and this is juz the start of the day... valentines day,,,

noon dota, lose 3 games, disappointment again,,. tmr gt exam? whr got mood to study liao.. i went back to the basketball court again, my slipers are torned to half, forced to wear shoe. In the end, bball is the only thing that calms my mind, u have to focus 120% on the court, no matter is ally enemy ball or floor, u dont pay attention to the floor u might pokai :D well, i played my own, still got lose, but i dont nid to be angry for the team sake, so its quite satisfying

night go zh hse, mama got biskut giv his mama, my leg alrdy lembik + not enof slp, but nvm if not giv now weekdays lagi susah, me and lim go, aunty see us, the phrase of the day:
2 of u wear red shirt, come see aunty on Valentines..... wan dan liao lo... :D

5/2

LAI LIAO LA!!! THE FEEL LAI LIAO!! 3 assignment deadlines + presentation tmr and exam on the nxt 2 days, i have less than 48 hrs and i am typing blog, LAI LIAO LA. i am actually more excited compare to stress, no words can explain how i feel now and i dont even know how to use proteus (a software that generate circuit), how to present tmr? how how AHAHAHAHA, wo mama i wan sot gao liao, 2 more subj haven study and im worrying bout how to generate a circuit, wait how bout the other 2 assgnment? which one shud i start doing 1st? study or assgn? nvm i am not asking anyone, bu yong fan dao ni men, i will answer it myself, i am quite curious wat action i will make, how arr, wtf am i thinking i also duno, now i think i must be a M, very serious M, i am enjoying this moment, i dont regret relaxing ytd, or the day be4, or more, ahh study is only interesting 48 hrs be4 the exam start, is this climax? or ending?

2/3

I am nt suppose to slp for the nxt 2 hrs due to somethn, so nid to type smthn to occupy time. Well finals is coming but study is not in the option, i rather write blog. Today is nt reli a good day, i had a bad morning, bad breakfast, lost a d2 game, failed a coc atk, want go eat lunch but mum drove my car out, even lost in "unblock me" 7-6 to jk, then go home fail another d2 game, go bball lose 2 games to kids straight, emo go mamak drink the teh'o today so tasteless, go bck home lose another d2 game, omg enough.... i juz realize i din study at all today, no matter how chill i am, i shudnt be chill anymore... rite..?

I choose to bck uni tonight even though there aint any class anymore, its the only way to stop me frm d2. my normal route is jln segambut, jln duta, then highway straight to serdang, it would take me at most 1hr and if i go 120km/h 35 mins also can reach. But when i reach the divider, suddenly i feel like taking jalan kuching. suppose if i take the turning in frnt i can link bck to KL and take the highway, somehow i feel like trying the cheras highway, so i took it. Its fun, i am totally entertained by the 1 hr trip to get out frm the stupid silk highway, juz to escape cheras nid 1hr, how fckin big are u man... then when i turn in to kajang, i kinda lost my way between kajang and putrajaya, then get lost for another 15 mins finally i escape sg chua to bangi, then in the end open waze to escape the stupid highway... silk highway is very sempit, construction everywhr frm connought til kajang, the roads keep merging and spliting, but its fun, driving a new road clear my head, getting lost bring me excitement, reaching my room makes me more happy than winning any games that i lost for the day, so nvm la, finally i get my mood bck, but the day is ending, so today is still a bad day....

be4 the long trip, i put wagakki band songs into my phone, which lighten my whole long and never ending but it actually ended in the end trip. i like this band very much, guitar, bass, drum, 三味線, 尺八, 和太鼓, gu zheng, and the singer sings like 吟詩, no wear specs also 眼鏡照跌. their main song is a cover for vocaloid senbonzakura. i dont reli like vocaloid, its a 3d projection of created anime character singing a song tuned by pc, well since its pc sync the pitch is inhuman high, but it doesnt attract me much. but how this band perform this song, duno la, i simply like it, 愛一個人TM是不需要任何理由的 :D it just made my day eventhough the day dont have much left LOL 
Senbonzakura -- wagakki band