大海, 沙海

They say time is a factor, its not just for some specific shit, its for everything. We take time to improve ourself, sharpen our skills, bring ourself to another stage, bla bla bla. Well it sure take time, to realize that you were stupid, to realize you were yong shui, to realise you dont know anything, to realise that you are selfish, ego, prideful, sexist, facist, racist what ever cist you stupid motherfckers can think of, i had everything, proud to say that i am on my way clearing these caches and virus. So it might had took me 20 years, at least i realize them (quite late i guess, dont complain), well changing them is another story but at least i try to. But there are cases that 20 years and so going on cannot cure at all, how can he not know that he is bothering, harassing, disturbing what ever words u can think of kacau other people like nobody business and say: i ask only mah, i CAO, the whole head is full with what, money? earning? scamming? oh wise future genius of miracle in this century of society but no one is gonna like you, how can you not notice this, u scam others i can advice you, u scam me try to earn my money, do some homework bro, your friend here aint what eggtart retard, reject your OFFER is polite, to respect our friendship, you want more? tumbuk sama mata kau bagi mcm panda tak tidur 3d3n baru nak sedar, gone bro. And when time is the factor, when its 1 day u reach the shore, 1 month u jump into the surface, the more you try to dive in, its fckin dark, at first its smooth, u wont know when u will hit the surface, u wont know there is a shark inside, u jump inside because you trust this friend, well, baru tadi i stand on a surface. I had already reach the surface, walking for 2 years, hoping its not the end of the it, but 我他妈的, 2 words - 肤浅, the more i stay, i can only see nemo, 窄小, and its getting more and more obvious even an idiot like me can sense it, 明显. The sea thought she keep calm can cheat dao people dive in, 伪装, attracting people with everything it has to make itself look like tourism spot, 利用, but i am tired giving you chance, 失望, i decided to leave this piece of shit sea, 觉悟. Sometimes when the wind blows, 机会, she can actually create her own ombak by the wind, 借人过桥, without knowing that you need fckin gravity to make your fckin ombak, 为达目的, 不择手段. Whenever she feels tak syok, 季候风, halau aja poeple out, 自私自利. When i am swimming back up, i see tards diving in, 兵哥哥, and for some reasons they just enjoy floating, 以貌取人, I see idiots that saw the surface but dont wana accept that its so fckin shallow, 死不放弃(白痴), coming in like bangla invade, but all also take in, 欲擒欲纵. Dont so stupid la, its empty inside, 回头是岸, its all for show, once in as a soldier, die as a soldier, bury under the sea, 陷阱重重. Land breeze, 晚上, Soldier team P PC0708 guard the gate, sea breeze, 早晨 Team B PC1234 guard toilet, 换兵如衣. Today is the sea open day, well what a big day, might as well give it a try, poof i jump in, straight float out, its the same shit again and again, we were used as distraction, 凑时间, waiting for her ikan paus to swim in, 观音将军, in the meantime she is playing with her nemo ignoring us like she boss, 摆sien脸, diu we jio u reject la o0o you try your best create your own army, even the regulars (you know who) are deploying, you have my blessing, but i put a sign on the shore (danger hazard do not enter worst than 监狱风云), the only thing i regret is wasted so much time to discover this shit, enjoy your day with your paus kia!!

finish dreaming, life goes on~

random

human are such complex biology, might be more to psychology, but its still super no logic. alright, dont talk about others, let me try to understand myself first. i remember i never listen to songs, then i started with those epic rap songs by jc, after that i go crazy for jpop for a few years, and wtf go insane for kpop, and these flames go low low low... to fish leong~ ballad~ how can the genre change so dramatically?!?! last time, i aint into sports at all, then i started badminton, then go crazy for basketball, its like my youth 14-17 4 golden years, 12pm hot sun 42 degree, raining heavily sky as dark as 12am, 5am, 1pm, 4pm, 9pm, even til 12am, as long as there is a ball and a hoop, i will play. i remember i hate music so much, cos last time the piano teacher duno teach la (its definitely my fault), then i started by remembering a song by notes, then can randomly cover for any shit songs, and i even bought a guitar now, shit me for hating music so long. i remember last time i watch cartoon, dexter? power puff? ed edd eddy? then go coocoo for anime~ bleach naruto 1piece fairy tales apa pun watch. ah then lai liao hk drama, fuuuaa hot!! now, korea drama and taiwan drama also watching. last time we dont gather, then we started to go singk movie and stuff, now every week also mamak. well, these are all still logic, here comes the not so logic part. for me, i cant hate a person, u may burn my hse, slice me half, steal my gf, dafaq i just duno how to hate you. but hell, its so easy to fall for a person. u will fall no matter wat age you are, 12? 20? no diff, no matter how old she is, same age? younger? older? no diff, u will still fall for her, no matter wat ouside she hav, fat? short? ugly? not a factor at all, and you will still fall no matter wat inside she have, stupid? crazy? well, you dont fck because, you fell~ you dont tell me wat wat lj hormones wat wat cb brain i have, i dont care, blood vessels are not wires, u cant just V = iR, no sense. is it only me? cos i fell for someone so easily. i myself love surprises, but people around are just too dull. surprise doesnt need to be big, small unexpected are just fine. you see people bored sitting beside you, plug 1 of your earphone and suck it into his ear. you see the person spacing out, whack his ass. you are bored, and you know he is bored too, just press his doorbell first, think what to do after. may not be that surprising, but try that on me, i will be like, wtf?! yea somethn like that. when i fell for someone, i dont think of what surprises i ll get, i am thinking, what to give her, cos i dont have the balls to say i love you, that is for sure, this guy(me) suck right? so, i would do something stupid, well, its actually work cos the relationship got a lot closer, but mostly, gao xia gao xia, jiu friend liao lo, either you friendzone me (happens everywhere) or i friendzone you (dreaming). so if i conclude saying i love you will either make a girlfriend or lost a girl-friend, is the statement correct? if its that way, i aint getting a gf forever, cos some round shape object isnt there for me. if the girl confess(just if), very paiseh... dare nt accept... tips a little la~ oh no, u have to tip a lot cos i am stupid. so where was i... oh yea, i can fall for a person easily, fall for 6 years ada, fall for 6 days pun ada, well since i nvr confess at all, screw it. girls, be happy, cos i nvr confess to you~ of cos i ada pakai cermin setiap hari, i sendiri pun tau, muka takda, body takda, duit tak banyak, otak tak pandai, open mouth then zha people, talk crap no talk fact, 2moro exam 2day start drama 1st episode, lagi cakap i lagi sad, so i decided to jump into my bed, and slpt.

weekEND

well, there goes the golden 72 hours, dissapointed? actually, no, but sad. well u cant group sad and dissapointed together, cos it aint gonna happen anyway, so u are expecting something out of nothing, more or less i know its impossible, so i dont feel that dissaponted, BUT SAD? YEA? IT DIDNT HAPPEN. so when u r down, u dont feel like eating, u dun feel like playing, you dont feel like watching the last episode of the latest drama, you dont feel like touching the basketball you loved most, you dont even wana open garena plus, tetris u will mix up the shapes, diamond dash mix up all the colours, even watching porn u will mix up the genders. well, never had a girlfriend before, but u cant say i am dry, i just left the cage after 6 years trapped in a story, well i admit i was a bad writer, my story started bad, ended worse, since i was the writer, i apologise to the characters inside. eventhough its bad, but i was at least a writer, so at least u can say i am experienced, but dafaq, my wall was destroy in just a few hours. i always wanted to have first sight love, no matter what race(except some), age, as long as u r a girl, i can accept you. i dont need big boobs, for god sake remind me of the dictator(movie); i dont need a very pretty face, since there wont be a girl that will be prettier than fany; i dont need special, u dont need to be very good in studies, or music, or sports, or any other talents, because i have neither one as well. i looked in to the mirror everyday, of cos i know, i have nothing, empty inside, empty outside, so i will never be picky about my other half, the girl you wan to look always is different than the one u wana be wif always. when u see other people broke up, u will always be able to find words to consult them, the guy isnt worth you crying, the girl aint pretty at all, love isnt everything in your life, of fck cos i know all this, its just that, when it happen to yourself, all the resistors were simplify by Thevenin, and the voltage was jus 1V, made it easy for the currect to enter, juz 1 way, all the way in, and there goes, POOP! the bulb just cant take it~ well, she did nothing, it just happen like in 1U, someone walk pass you and gently touched you, current still go through since electrons were already charged, yes, the electrons dont need to do anything, they just need to meet each other, and that day, we met. {You dont know me, i dont know you, i was new, u reach out for me, u taught me everything u knew, u talked to me like a friend, u kept somethn frm me and i try my best not to ask, our gap were too wide, but i dont care, its just that the time was not enough, for me to share...} (p/s: its not lyrics, no copyright) its 3 days of heaven and 3 months of hell, days without you described as hell tidak melampau langsung, but i will never regret my decision not quitting this job that aint suitable for me, ur timetable, ur drawer, ur room, for now is mine, this period, i will see the world u see, i will do the things you do, we will share the same thought, so the next time i see you, i dont need another account, because i registered, and we synchronized

emo song

HEI i just met you!! and this is crazy @@ i took your number, and lost it ady , FUXK

well, i think i did it, but... but... i guess i was too happy, well there is still like 10% chance though, it has a higher chance than opening a fb marvel lockbox. But FXXK, everything was good, smooth, the process was perfect, but why? careless? well i am a guy though... that cant be the reason == alright i admit, i was always stupid, i dont act stupid, because i already am. i really dont know, if i did something wrong, dun backstab me, take me on front, i will let u bash me, if i had been bash i wont make the same mistake, but whatever it happened. FXXK no its not ok zz, this is not an experience, this is regretful, i can die, z, amen

人生中的一小段之 "放长假"

我的人生一向来都有很朋友伴，所以你妈想觉得闷都有点难. After college, 就 fuck liao, not saying non-chinese cant be good friends, is just that, our interest are too different. I basketball, you football; I talk Nana, you talk Siti; I study you ponteng; I ponteng... you still ponteng... So, 我的学习人生 到上个月pause了一下， 你妈的， 4 months， 一下你个头. 整个二月，做了典型二世祖，eat sleep play burn money, until AEC hung recommend me to a job. Well, happy me and i told him, any job can do, as long as don't stay at home, so i called the boss, not knowing i am stepping in to the galaxy black hole @@ 7 hours, 5 days a week, rm1200, well, not bad at all. So monday i started the job~ the second i step in the room, its just like online game, every level of monsters are inside there, my sight is blinded, i am helpless, level 1, some more passive skill only, equipmentless, perfectly SCREWED. Wait, there are some people that their head showing their players ID, oh, there 5 ppl that are like me there, thank god~ but there is one calling me, she guide me through the whole day, even show me some ancient area skills. Come on guys, go online if there are people who still teach you but not cheat you, either they will cheat you one day or your luck came. Sadly the 1st day she offline 2 hours earlier than me, that 2 hours, was 1 of the @#$%^&* moment in my life. They aint no ratata or pidgey, noob one also can psybeam 9 you, you see articuno and zaptos flying everywhere, and you only got? 2 pocket balls down there. So to me, 在这残酷的战场上， 她是我唯一， 也是现在，我. And just when i got to know the other players, they told me, that she is leaving the game, after tomorrow. I was like, 你对我这么好， 难道是因为你把我当成你的接班人吗? Just think that i have to solo 40 of them 5 days a week until end of May alone, JUST IMAGINING MAKES ME CRY. But, the fact she is going will not change. Today's tuesday, there was an event, open monsters gathering, every level of monster inside the area and i am alone, helpless, she was a little late, just 2 or 3 minutes, 场面已经不堪, well, she still settled them for me, but i still cant imagine, tomorrow will be the last day i will see her. HOW TO SURVIVE WITHOUT HER? Before today, everyday i was: 12pm only wake up, mamak, basketball, dota, fb games, maybe piano a little and oh i am starting guitar to waste more time, than Xam only sleep. Before "before today": morning class, then think of how to ponteng, slacking, dreaming in class, basketball, yamcha, then exam time study like not chung yao like that. I always thought that was tough, and the only good thing is when i got to play. Now, 人生中(暂时)最大的乐趣, in shortly 3 days, gonna end... And in contrast, 人生中(3 months)最大的痛楚, well, it had started anyway, 比最大的痛楚更大的要降临了，跟我讲名句精华我就要你死,包你空乏其身. Well, you people always say, aiya, get fb or hp no lo, bitch please, balless here, have to keep for monsters. I think, i will use 1 of them, even though she is quite experienced, well, there is always the inexperience way to get something good experiencely, you know what i mean? well, i dont get it myself too~

To me beloved pik yin:

NXT SING K ON ME, YOU PAY 0, ANY COMPLAINS?

Da 3rd idiot

FUN? Can you understand the feeling of a person, in a stupid boring hostel, with a roommate that is constantly in MIA mode and a housemate constantly in INVI mode, with extra 0.Xkb god damn TM line, and a PC that is almost 5 years old, what can i do??? STUDY? SLEEP? SXCK CORK? bitch please~ But somehow i can open manage to open my blogspot, which took me 20+ mins to get in the stupid dashboard and another 20 min to upload the stupid post, WOW so "FUN"!! You give me de "you come gao gao zhan mou pong chan" feel, so buzz off~~ wee wung wung wee wung wung....

Two Idiots

The timing is too imba, so i guess 1 of you shits saw this and tell the other one, dudes, its midnight 0.03 and 0.05 zzz First, if i owe JACKSON money, it must be form 3, cos after that i eat free food, if you wan me to remember form 3, HOHO SOLI LO, GOT ALSO I EAT LIAO LO, compress digest absorb and manufatured. And sorry to be one of the first survivors struggling updates, i really cannot forget that i used a FEW MONTHS to make this blog into the blog it looks like now, TaMaDe just uploading the anime pictures took me ages, remember last time my internet connection?? WELL IT DIDNT WENT ANY BETTER AFTER 2 YEARS ANYWAY, SCREW IT. Second, you wan heart? aww so sweet~ but i very easy jealous de, unless you chop UEE into 18.2 pieces(0.2 is for her extra fats), pik yin also wont give you her heart (OMG so cruel XD) Oh, if u want the organ, u can always take a parang to my house i guess @@ And you 2 bitches, pls dun promote everywhere, later too many ppl know i will paiseh leh, type dao ngo shou luan~

I remember blogging was very hot last time, almost 2 new entry for me to stalk everyday. But now? 1 month ago, 6 month ago, for most of us, 2 years~ And then I realise, only my blog, has nothing meaningful inside, NOTHING, kaninia nothing, want trace back what shit also dont have, forgotten. I am very special :) Oh I am so proud of this talent, I forgot things, very very very easily, fast, completely no cache, cant undo, clear history, I feel so happy, I cant remember 90% of the sad things happened in my life, in the same time, 90% of the happiness came in, and went out. I remember got more than 5 people gave me their passwords, for msn fb gg twitter, all forgotten; some promises i made to teachers, to friends, to myself, forgotten. Well, there is a chatbox below, so if anyone (I guess no one) read this post, type it, something I owe you, or you owe me, I will post an entry just for you, new promises, apologizes, problems, adjectives for me, I will read through the comments, and then give you back a long paragraph :) This will definately remind me, so that i will never forget shits again. Since this is for myself, others post entry for people to read, why so anyway~ I love music, I am just not that fond in piano. I am hardworking, I am just not firm enough. I am stupid, I just help people in a way people define it stupid. Tell me if i am wrong~ Chatbox =)