30/11

Kidding me juz now mama call me, say cousin told him, since u study dao so nt happy, somemore keep fail, QUIT LA, then he come tell my mum, he 醒觉 liao, OMFG 1yr foundation + 2yr degree and he fckin tell mama he 醒觉, 醒你妹, the money spent on him, really is throw money into water, it reminds me of friend, someone told me someone study in utar Mech Eng degree, took 2yrs+ to settle his 1yr foundation and 2yrs in degree nt even completed yr 1 and get kicked out from school. I duno about my friend is an idiot or nt, i duno bout my bro also, but if its my son, i would had fckin slap him, 你他妈不要读就死远一点, dun say wan take degree and fail, at least take degree and play (me) still acceptable la. And the friend say still wan continue, EE Eng somemore, kidding me, 自己斤两要称一称嘛, but the main point is the parents, still willing to throw money on him. This is ridiculous, everyone has the right to go uni yes, but nt idiots, my mama could had spend more money to go other country travel instead of feeding an idiot, they don earn money to do charity for utar zz I duno, this should be none of my business, but i just feel like punching my bro, i just dont fckin know why, my mum was so happy when he gav up on studies, i was like, 🙄🙄🙄, my sister is gonna take him as an example for sure, im expecting F6 sem 1 all fail for her result, everyday go out study wif a samsung note 5 among the notes, duno wat if my mum gets a heartattack, i might hang this 2 idiots on the fan upside down and let it spin for 2 weeks, and i tot i wasnt a good son, 败家仔 zzz

30/11

week 7 nid to pass up fyp progress report 1, but oni met advisor 2 weeks ago, last week oni finalize topic, apa babi progress dia nk dalam 1 minggu aku babi pun belum cari jgn kata nk sembelih o0o, Last thursday i ask for meeting wif supervisor to ask wat to include in my report, reach his room empty, wait liao 15 min i go walk around the building passby a meeting room, he TM having meeting wif other student, diao i wait outside for freeking 30 mins, delay tell la i lunch dou no eat jiu fly to ur room liao u ply hide and seek meh zz while waiting outsideI listen to the discussion, is about capstone design project which im taking too, ppl ask him wat shud include in the proposal, he say: u muz do ur own research, find more info, then oni we can know wat details to include. WOI, ask u 东 u talk 西, i saw the students face, so much pek cek + confuse, i was like diu lo my supervisor ini mcm, habis la aku. 

So my turn for meeting, he tell me this, baru 2 minggu mana ada progress, nxt week baru hantar la, let the coordinator or the counter ppl know, I was like FUCK YEA, this weekend can play liao. So i enjoyed my weekend, then sunday night i send email to the fyp coordinator, telling i ll pass up late and my advisor allow, tmr morning wake up, 

Cool, so i whatsapp my supervisor wat to include in the report, i was expecting him to say that he will talk to the coodinator to delay for me, he 竟然 ask me to do, i was like, 💩💩💩. Ok fine, lets do this the professional way: 

class finish = 1pm  

deadline = 4pm 

progress report = 30 marks 

actual progress made in 2 weeks = 0 

So according to the equations, i hav no time, even i did type smthn, i hav nth to type, even i wan try to bullshit, i hav less than 3hr to research bullshit, OK CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

Well, i produced 9 pages, imba leh?? minimum 15pg, ppl do dao 20+ pg, excluding appendix somemore, i dun even hav anythn to add in appendix, my 30 mrks burn le... Nvm think on the bright side, still hav 70 marks, Im fine wif B+ ❤️❤️. 

I myself has so many problems, well i choose nt to stress, i choose to giv up the probs that i cant solve, so wat i lose 30 marks, i get B or lower, after i grad it doesnt matter anythn, Spm so little A, Pmr so little A, Upsr straight A, it doesnt matter at all, at least i dun care. My bro came home on thurs, fight wif my mama for 4 days to drive a car up to kampar. I was like, he wan jiu giv lo, papa like, can consider de, mama say NO!! Then when i was enjoying weekend, my hse actually hav war. I heard how my bro negotiate wif mama.

1.0 rain everyday on bike very leceh

1.1 last year also rain everyday why u din ask

1.2 I CANOT TAHAN LIAO LO (reason accepted)

2.0 then ur friend also gt car wad, why u no sit their car?

2.1 吊臭 liao (reason accepted) 

3.0 then like that....

mama haven finish sentence, my bro say: 你够了，问问问，要给还是不要给讲一声，不要每次这样浪费时间给人假希望。我很少跟你要东西，现在我来问就是我很想要，你讲这样多就算了啦！

I was like wtf the nego was going well, and he throw the nego just like that?! 

Mama was shocked, dun say mama i

also shocked, but wat mama say nxt lagi shocked: u diam! 你现在不要听我讲，你也不用讲, DIAM. 

i dun think i nid to go utar learn marketing i also know, you wan nego for car, trying to get it with the minimum constriction and condition is the best outcome for a nego, but for him, ur car is my car, i wan drive my car bck uni on monday, u wan giv jiu giv dun talk so much. If im my mama, i would be like, ok nego ends here, u sit train bck. But mama these days 转性, despite my bro say like tat, he go nego wif papa, and duno why somehow the higher lvl nego includes me. After the nego, i was shocked, the result show how much my papa mama love my bro, papa say monday drive him bck utar, sun bian go pinang pray. AND nxt tues drive car up kampar GIV him and papa sit train bck home. i was like, jealous? nt really la, but it took me 3 months to nego to drive to Kl during my A-lvl, more or less jealous gt gua. mama

prob is he cant drive properly, he drive worse than my sister, so highway drive is nt allowed but send car to utar drive around there ok, wah sometimes i juz duno wat my parents thinking, 小路才是撞车最频密的地方. I din say anythn thou, i say if he wan the new car he can take, i dun mind. 

The outcome is good rite? I think tat is the best, if i at utar gt car liao, i drive to pinang eat char kuey tiao everyday mama also duno rite? juz chill for a week la, i also noe my bro skip class one its impossible to get rain, so he wan car de reason very obvious alrdy, mama alrdy giv permission even thou the nego went bad, i is envy dao 无声出. U know wat my bro say? I want it on monday, if nt i stay at home til nxt saturday oni drive bck up, WOW, tis lovely idiot grow grass in his head, must be full of moses and grasshopper, if u think im crazy im actually the most sane person in the hse. 

Mama sunday night go wedding dinner, eat half way bo mood ask me fetch her home. She thinks bro has some issue in utar, friend boycott, fetch girlfriend, watever la. I dun understand, he fail 3 semester, 3 times ptptn lost papa pay, last sem long sem 4 month 3 subj fail also, and papa mama still giv him 1 more chance, how come he still can act like a boss? I would be so ashamed i would dig a hole and hide, i mean, even passing a degree is nth to be proud of let alone failing.

Im actually amazed at his thick skin, he actually threathen my mum if he go bck kampar he wont come bck again. To me la, if u dun wan come bck is fine, if im papa, i would cut all his card service, phone service, school fee and accomodation fee, lets see how cocky u can be whn u nid to pay for ur own life, nt included food yet, u would use up all ur money no choice but to bck to kepong, no money buy ticket nid to walk, no food no energy walk nid to crawl, and beg for forgiveness outside the locked gate, thats what u deserve when u hav no brain, mama giv birth de time is perfect, ur brain development is also perfect, but now u dun hav brain confirm is ur own fault, if tis week go bck i see my bro still there, i might actually punch him under the name of love, leme beat some sense out of him i nid to release my own stress as well. Haiz, problems everywhr, 2 mid term and 1 assgn deadline coming also... shit just happen whenever they wan, pakat la come 1 by 1... dun sekali gus, lucky is me other ppl canot handle confirm go jump building alrdy, ppl Upsr 6A1B also jump building HAHAHA 

26/11

today im in another coc clan playing clan war, and i screwed an atk. no one blame me, but since morning til now i hav been thinking of the same bloody mistake i made, why bring more wallbreaker instead of a jump, and the wallbreaker went left instead of going in, 1 mother fckin choice made a sure 3 star become 1, the troops didnt went in to get the hall. At this moment i recall some bloody fcker that ask me to go back to my pinoy clan, its just a game. I am losing a war, but we r all happy, everyone is still trying their best even thou opp achieved 43/45 stars, no one throwing, everyone atk. So its just a game, watever; last time when i ply bball, it was slippery, i took off my slippers in order to hav more friction, we lost the game and my leg has blister everywhr, why try so hard, its just a game. Those days, i couldnt answer these question, do i not know that plying basketball bare foot would hurt my leg? do i not know complaining bout clan management wouldnt gain any solution? Then why do i still do it? i din argue, mayb cos i did agree wif the fact that its just a game. i din really search for the answer, but i always kept the ques, and i saw this clan, they gav me an answer. Passion and desire to win. Even its just a normal game, anythn, tetris, tic-tac-toe, watsoever game u can name, does wanting to win need a reason? i wana win, no matter its clan war or normal atks, chess or ladders, dota normal or ranked game, it doesnt matter which one is more important, i wana win them all. U call this greedy? No i juz wana win, weather can or nt, doesnt matter, is always wan or nt. Thats why i come appeal to u my opinion bout clan ppl nt active, thats why i still take off my slipper (cos i forgot to bring sport shoe), thats why i still bball even after 30+ times twisting the same damn bloody ankle, i would feel sad whole day if i lose to a bunch of kids on the court no matter wat reason, i hav passion, i hav desire, and i hav my mother fckin pride, the just-a-game doesnt matter a shit to me. I bring 25 valkyrie and i couldnt even get 1 star on that base in coc, u think the dark elixer hurts me? No is my pride, and no matter ppl tell me how useless valkyries are i ll still use them, for the same damn reason, i hav my pride. The first time i use meepo in dota 2, i could control all 5 units, not even 2 units, how much my friends told me how suck im, i dont stop til i get it, its not stubborn, its really not. For u motherfckes that doesnt hav neither pride, passion nor desire, u don nid to quit, i quit, i quit the clan, i fired u, not the other way around. 

then u may ask why i don study? of cos i don, xda passion, xda pride, lagi xda desire, getting C doesnt matter :D i wont regret getting a pass cert, not at all :D :D

17/11

tis sem have 2 projects, 1 is fyp and 1 is capstone design. wat is fyp, go google. wat is capstone design, is the basic of a project design. for example, tis yr title is a damn hotel, and our group is EE & EEE, so wat we do is we r task to do the %electrical power circuit, communication network system, entertainment, aircond, back up power, security system and a damn renewable energy% --- designs. For the past 3 yrs, in my uni life, no subj that gor gor cant settle 3 days before final exam, most of them just take me 1 sleepness night to settle, and settle doesnt mean A, just a damn pass will do, even passing means getting 50/100 in the final paper, 1 day study could settle it. BUT THIS SHIT? NO, no text book, no guide, no suggested reference, no details, NO SHIT. Im assgn to do communication and entertainment system, just the damn "estimated cost" section almost kill my brains. entertainment, assume in room, so is television, tapi wat brand? how big? why choose this? omg can u juz watch the damn tv and shut up? so is this entertainment enof in room? how bout a dvd player? stereo system maybe? how much would it cost? how many do u nid? what brand would u pick? TM kidding me, and that is juz entertainment. how bout communication? phone system? internet? how many routers u need to hav wifi in 5 floors 200 rooms? wat security u using? wat type of IP u using? how would the topology be? 

mother of god teacher oni teach me how to count the voltage, the current, the power, how the buddha i noe how mnay router u nid? wat type of service i nid? shud i go for unify? niama i almost forgot bout astro. mummy... first time in my life, im forced to study, sit down and search for articles, journals, what the landmine did i stepped on? i nid to study few hrs for a freeking 72 page reports? karma, i must had burned books last time now im force to read back all those i burned.. i really hate tis, especially communication, wat the hell is ipv4 ipv6? wat is VoIP? teacher also nvr teach in class, but i need read all about this and submit a damn proposal bout shits that i dun even understand after reading few hundred pages of words, in the end i just type in google show me advantages of IPv4 whatever it is copy and paste, gor gor giv up dah 😢😢😢 and when i just pass up this shit, i juz realize i need to come up wif 2 more diff designs as backup... so wat i subscribed astro and i hav to chg my plan? niama u believe i subscribe no channel and u hav to rent dvd frm the lobby wif AV double price?? eh actually i think it works... creativity is the source... of becoming engineer (suddenly feeling confident, proposal 2 consider done :D)

2/11

不知不觉已经是四年生了，回想起过去几年究竟在干什么，竟然年年都不一样。一年生的我有着一个1TB的hard disc, dl 了非常多的英文片和anime，于是就是躲在房间里和室友慢慢煲，拜一煲到拜四，然后就滚回家，打球打机喝茶。二年生的我，非常意外不小心不故意地踩爆my dear hard disc, 悲伤了25分钟，然后积极地寻找网站看anime，既然没得带去看，就直接stream着看，BUT THEN，宿舍的网速，竟然是3栋楼的人share着用，1栋有10层，1层有8间，1间有4人，assume一个人一架电脑，我TM在跟959个人抢线，看戏？Load个FB都要5分钟，才出到第一个News Feed。在我快绝望的时候，我discover到你的存在，My 电脑室，虽然不能下载大的file，但是看youtube 1080P 是完全 smooth de，因此我的人生又亮了希望。3年的我，已经看了很7多的anime，我不敢讲我看了全部，不过假如看完那个叫神仙，哥绝对是神人。所以三年的我走向了这个不归路，韩剧。一向都很迷Kpop，大一到大二每个 (girl group)comeback, debut都通杀，以前是因为听不惯韩文的发音所以没有看韩剧，现在因该没问题了。一开始看就是两部神作 Secret Garden & City Hunter，是很好看，不过音还是不惯... 哥竟然走向第二条不归路，variety show... Running man, Infinity challenge, We Got Married, Weekly Idol, nan mangesou... OK，练到了，time to watch drama... 今年的drama出到最凶，凶的不是Quantity，是Quality。Blood, producer, orange marmalade, angry mum, scholar who walks the night, pinocchio, the girl who see scent, yong pal, oh my ghost, and many many freeking more. 讲的都是有看的，还没看的加在一起就恐怖了，比A5牛肉🐂还要垂延。问我哪一个好看的话，其实除了scholar walks the night & orange marmalade 的返回时空篇，其他的都很强大。本来今年最好看的，应该是kill me heal me，但中途杀出一个Healer，哥的心完全被那神一般的剧情俘虏了，简直就是一个Perfect Version 的 City Hunter，有更强大的剧情，更悲惨的过去，更多的action，外加战略，记者(职业)，Hacking，romance，其实假如kill me heal me 找个靓女我可能会比较挣扎，不过Sry这神作今年注定排第二 TT healer除了剧情，男女主角，连OST都强大过人，搞到有Kim Tae Hee 的 Yong Pal 都跌了名次，有Shin Se Kyung的Girl Who see scent 连榜都上不到，有Heal的作品真是太强大了。此时反问自己，你TM看戏还是看chick... 我只能说... ada chick punya 戏 always win :D

2/11

me much envy ppl that enjoy uni life, they hav a gang, eat together go class together, go to any society and dominant the majority, after class gt activities, host and join events, i dont even hav a group for my class assgn, when i see 1 gang come in and talk in the class so happily before lecturer enters, me mmg oni can sit down and listen, nt to say i nt friendly, but if people 1 gang talking jiu suan u noe also u wont actually suddenly like: hei i know bout that too, my god ppl ll think u r a weirdo for god sake. my best friend finally drop out frm uni, duo become solo now, the other classmates r in another section, tis class jiu suan banyak ah moi dou no use, 光看吃不得, the others also gang gang like that, last time my duo can pick up the solos, now solo liao who come pick me up TT lets think on the bright side. stupid 4-man assgn i can solo anyway, even if i don do also still hav 80 marks, more than enof for me to pass. later let 哥厚着脸皮找陌生人, group u tuk assgn dah full x? blh add i? haiz uni life, life of a solo uni student is like 💩💩, i kinda envy ppl that take exam based, habis class ciao home when end of the course pay money exam, don nid quiz assgn MT do tis do that 看那/支白/老师脸色, imagining nxt time solo work life i alrdy feel like crying TT Fml...